All posts by Author T. Tucker

Visionary, Child of God, Wife, Mother, Author, Professional Hair Stylist and Stage 3 Breast Cancer survivor. I escape in books and thoroughly enjoy writing. I live in Michigan with my husband, 3 children and 2 cats.

An Amazing Discovery

It wasn’t until I turned 40 that I became alive. Finding out I had breast cancer aided me in my self-discovery.

What I thought was self-love all my adult life turned out to be a woman going along to get along. Since I started writing my memoir in 2017, I’ve had to face some tough truths. Looking at the woman in the mirror is no easy feat.

In fact, even now at 43, I find myself cautious in ways that I would never have been in my twenties. Is that a good thing? Sure, it’s called maturity. Yet, I am speaking of being cautious when it comes to going after my dreams, and walking an unknown path.

Many times, I’ve stumbled and stopped based on feedback from those I love. I’ve come to realize they may not understand my journey. Some struggle with the calling on my life Heck, so do I.

Being Called

Being called and chosen by God is not an easy undertaking. It requires a daily dying of self. Dying is painful. Dying says that I can’t retaliate when someone hurts me. It tells me to follow the scriptures, and live for God. Dying requires me to walk without knowing where these feet are leading me. In the same token, I can’t concern myself with others in a sense of allowing them to stumble me.

Each day I am discovering more about myself. You see, God saved me out of the world and a debased mindset in 2010. Since then, I have been on a rollercoaster ride, and a great awakening.

I knew God in theory, but now I know Him in an intimate way. We have a solid relationship. Through this relationship, I ‘ve learned to receive the love He has for me. In fact, I’ve learned to love myself, flaws and all. We are all a work in progress, but there should be some progress.

I have a voice and it’s powerful! I am somebody!

I often wonder where would I be had I never left home as a teenager. Everything I have endured brought me to this moment. Our lives are testimonies. My life is a testament to the goodness of God. I am a witness that He is faithful, and His mercy endures forever.

I Discovered

In the past, I would latch on to people because of my past. I didn’t feel I deserved true love because of the things that I did. I messed up so much. I allowed men to use my body. I thought it was a testament to my power that they wanted me, but it was actually low self-esteem.

My amazing discovery was loving myself. The quirky side, the serious side, the sensual side, the nerdy side, the dreamer and visionary, and more.

I know that my life is a sum of decisions that I made. The Lord weaved Himself in it and told me He called and chose me for His Glory. He then shifted my path and allowed me to go through different trials which strengthens my faith.

I know who I am and how to love, not only me, but others. This is an amazing discovery!

I want to help others discover themselves and their self-worth. It doesn’t matter what you did. What matters is what you’ve learned, and where do you go from here? I am not my mistakes! Through my journey, you will see bravery, authenticity, and an overcomer to the Glory of God!

Writing my memoir, “Everybody Kneeling ain’t Praying” was difficult. I confronted issues that I preferred to keep hiding away. It was in pure obedience that I am sharing my story. The word says that we are overcomers by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony.

And so I forge ahead, with the Lord leading me. This feels like a journal entry LOL. Oh well. I have embraced this side as well. I am a writer, and have been since a child.

My contributions count.

I’m excited for more amazing discoveries as I continue on my journey.
Thanks for reading and God bless you.


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Word from the Lord

Hi everyone and bless you. I was in prayer this morning, (10/31/2019) praising God and sitting quietly before Him when He gave me a word to release:

Write these words my daughter. I am coming soon and my reward is with me. Don’t be dismayed. Don’t fret. Hearken to my voice. Stay in my word. The world is changing rapidly, but I haven’t changed. I am the same forever. There are those wishing to change the times, seasons and even my word. Hold fast to what you know. Hold fast on what I’ve shown you. Don’t believe the counterfeit. He is coming. Don’t fall by the wayside. Stay strong in faith. Those in the valley of decision, choose a side.

I will spit lukewarm out of my mouth. I desire faith. What will I find when I come? Will I find faith? Go forth in the assignments I’ve given you. The world is waiting. My sons and daughters are being revealed. Those hidden are coming out. Harvest is here. Revival is here. Greater than you’ve ever seen. Miracle, signs and wonders .

Greater works will my people do. They will speak and mountains will move. I’m calling them forth. Dreams. I’m pouring out my Spirit. Children seek me with your dreams. I desire to speak with you. Turn off the noise.

Great deception is coming upon your land. Stand firm. Stay close to me. I will tell you truth.

The slight of the eye. Like a magic trick. To fool the masses. I am forewarning you. Don’t believe it. Don’t follow man. Follow me. Only the strong in faith will survive what will come. Even my elect will be fooled. Your desires aren’t my desires. Don’t idolize man. Look to me. I am your help. Call on me and I will answer


End of word

Bless you all

Your sister in the faith


Scriptures for reference

“And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be.”

Revelation 22:12 KJV

“And Joshua said unto them, Fear not, nor be dismayed, be strong and of good courage: for thus shall the Lord do to all your enemies against whom ye fight.”

Joshua 10:25 KJV

“And he shall speak great words against the most High, and shall wear out the saints of the most High, and think to change times and laws: and they shall be given into his hand until a time and times and the dividing of time.”

Daniel 7:25 KJV

“Multitudes, multitudes in the valley of decision: for the day of the Lord is near in the valley of decision.”

Joel 3:14 KJV

“For the earnest expectation of the creature waiteth for the manifestation of the sons of God.”

Romans 8:19 KJV

“Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father.”

John 14:12 KJV

“Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;”

2 Thessalonians 2:3 KJV

“And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.”

Mark 16:17-18 KJV

Is Jesus still on the throne?

Have you ever wondered, if Jesus was still on the throne?

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This is October and has been designated breast cancer awareness month. I am a 2 year survivor and thankful. I think daily of my deliverance from cancer and the new eyes that it has given me. I have a new respect for life.

When I did a self-breast check in my shower in 2016, I felt a lump and was instantly alarmed. I did get checked and further test revealed that cancer was indeed present I my breast. During surgery it was discovered that not only was it in my breast but it had invaded the lymph nodes under my arm. I was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer. The surgeon was confident that he removed all of the tumor, but not that there weren’t active cancer cells floating about in my body, hence Chemotherapy was proposed to me, and after that, Radiation therapy. I was confused and scared. I had received a word that I would not die, that this wasn’t unto death, but that I had to go through with it. Did I want to? Oh no. I cried and I prayed to God, Please take this away. I don’t want cancer Lord. I don’t want this trial. It’s too hard. I’m scared. All of that and more was coming out of my mouth and on my heart. The Lord, being the good father He is, comforted me. He sent me words of comfort through others, and the presence of Himself which was and is amazing


Cancer kills people every day. It has not political affiliation, no gender or race target; It gets everyone. Your finances are not a factor. Millionaires die of cancer also. Cancer is a pestilence and the bible speaks in Matthew 24 of pestilences in various places. Even through cancer sickness and death, has Jesus stepped off the throne? No. We don’t understand the many trials and tribulations that we encounter, and knowing that others are going through the same doesn’t always make us feel better. We don’t want to go through anything life threatening. Who would choose if they had a choice? I wouldn’t. If I had a choice, my parents would still be alive, my friends, my cousin…my body wouldn’t have been attacked by the disease of cancer.

Everything that befalls us is not Gods will. God is good! We are in a fallen world, with a fallen nature. Sin is rampant. Food, water, and the air is polluted. We have a very real enemy that wants to take our lives by any means at his disposal.

We don’t know when our days are up, but we know our life is in God’s hands. We know that there are appointed times of everything as it says in Ecclesiastes. 

Do we get angry with the Lord for the trials that befall us? Why me Lord? Then the infamous saying of “Why not you” comes behind it. 


My mindset was most important during this time. I realized that I could let anger and depression set in. I was not a foreigner to these emotions. I suffered depression in the past, and was even medicated for it. The time of my cancer diagnosis, I lost my mother suddenly and my dad soon after. My finances were in disarray.

Now who would chose that? I made a decision to trust God. I could have stayed in my head, crying and wallowing in my misery being alive for all intent and purposes but dead inside. Dead because many days I would be moving through the days with no life. Just walking through making the appropriate responses, but having no joy or peace. The Lord didn’t say that we wouldn’t be without trials, in fact He specifically said that we would be. However, He also said that He would be with us and never leave us. (John 16:33| Deuteronomy 31:8)

Jesus is still on the throne; He hasn’t lost His power. We aren’t here for nothing. There is purpose in us all. He chose us before the foundation of the world. Our life is to bring Him glory; we are His witnesses. Even through trials we show that He is real. These last 2 years were difficult but they catapulted me in my faith and trust in my God. They took me to higher heights and deeper depths knowing that I could only depend on God.

I am encouraging you today that no matter what the situation is, look to the hills where your help comes from. We have seasons of quiet and peace, but there are also ones of turmoil and pain. What do we learn during those times? Do we self-reflect? Are we spending it saying why me Lord. Questions are ok, but move on to thought provoking self-reflection. Think on the Lord and His word. What does it say; what is He trying to accomplish through you.

We tend to think of ourselves as single entities apart from others but we are all intrinsically connected. I’ve learned that one person can affect many. We’ve seen it throughout history; one person can bring change. Our position of faith can encourage others. Even if our external situations aren’t changed right away, know that God is still there. Many things didn’t go bad overnight, nor will He always change them for the better overnight. Can you trust Him in the middle?

They’re lessons to be learned in the process. Whether it’s sickness, finances, unruly children, marital problems, etc. Allow God to be God, and stay in position of prayer, love, trust and complete dependency on Him. The enemy is counting on us walking by sight, and not faith and he makes sure we see and focus on the external. God is concerned about our internal. He changes people from the inside out. He’s concerned about our heart.

Our position

Jesus is still on the throne. He is in power regardless of what external situations may say. Let your heart not be troubled. The Lord says to believe in Him. True belief is a position. It’s a determined place; a mindset, a choice. Its faith, and it doesn’t waiver because of external circumstances. We will never know everything God is doing, and that is where the uncomfortable part comes in. Even in receiving a word, He reveals by and by, even prophets know in part.

Imagine yourself closing your eyes and falling backwards. You don’t know if someone will catch you or not. The thought is uncomfortable at the very least. But this is how we live every day. Every day we are falling backwards throwing caution to the wind, trusting and knowing that our God will catch us. With this reassurance in Him, we can stand the torrential rains and winds that befall us. We have each other to lean on, and our Lord who will never leave or forsake us. Don’t walk around sad because of external circumstances. The best thing we can do for anyone is to pray for them and trust that God will handle the situation. We aren’t God, and I remind myself of that regularly when I interfere too much in what He’s doing in my family’s life. It hurts to be a bystander and watch them go through, but it will be for their good, and ours.

In closing

Jesus is still on the throne, and we must never forget that. When we look at the world, and all that the enemy is doing we tend to glorify him instead of Jesus. We talk so much about what he is doing and he loves it. He isn’t bigger than Jesus. The word says darkness would rise, but our light, individually and collectively will shine even brighter. We shine when we don’t hide our lamps. Instead, we sit on the hilltop for all to see, and that isn’t based on circumstances. We shine despite circumstances to show who our God is and what He can do. We shine in a world of darkness, sickness, violence and turmoil. We shine because Jesus is real and He chose us.

We accepted his call. We belong to him and we trust the path that he has set for us. We shine being a living witness of the realness of our Lord and Savior as those we love, and some we don’t even know reject him in the world. The world is changing, many keep saying that, but understand that Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. The world lowers it standards, but God hasn’t’.

Throughout biblical history there has always been a remnant of those in the world who take God at his word regardless of the changing times. Even still, our position is that of love and compassion, yet a firm foundation and holding on to truth.

Stay strong and be quick to give a response to what you believe. Hold fast to what you’ve learned and witnessed with your own experiences and those around you. Jesus is still on the throne!

Spiritual Warfare

The battleground

As Believers we encounter spiritual warfare often. It’s not a matter of “if” you will encounter it, but “when”. The Lord said to take up our cross and follow Him, and in doing so, we are not following the ways of the world, but the ways of Jesus as found in the bible; the Word of God

The enemy attacks our mind; that’s the battleground. The Word says that we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but principalities and spiritual wickedness in high places. With that being the case, stay alert and be prepared to fight.

 2nd Corinthians 4-6 (KJV) states: 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds; 5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; 6 And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled.

The plan of the enemy

When the enemy comes around messing with me, I get angry. I go to war and oppose him. I am more than a conqueror and he is a defeated foe. I am fighting from a place of victory! I’ve seen in my walk things come to stop me from following the Lord. It seems after I tackle one giant, after a while another equally ugly and large one comes. Thankfully, the Holy Spirit teaches me how to war in the spirit, and to rest in God. I understand satan is looking to kill, steal and destroy

The enemy comes to thwart the plan of God in your life. The Word says if we first submit to God, then resist him, he will flee. (James 4:7) Do you resist him or are you in agreement with him? You can’t oppose him if you’re ok with the oppression and bondage; if you’re comfortable with it.  You may say “This is just the way I am”. I used to say that for most of my life until I learned the truth. I learned that I was a child of God; that He chose me before the foundation of the world, and that there is a purpose for my life—greater than I could have imagined. 

The enemy lied to me most of my life, and I unknowingly believed him, and allowed him in my life. I made many agreements with him until my eyes were opened to truth, and Jesus delivered me. Now I see the enemy from afar off, and although through satan’s trickery, I still take the bait sometimes, but once I realize it, I put a stop to it immediately. I decree the Word of God, and correct my thoughts. To the Glory of God.

When we take our eyes off God and look at our problems, the enemy is winning. The enemy is Satan, and the bible refers to him as the father of lies. He will have you all in your feelings, being led by them, looking at the people instead of realizing the people are being influenced in their behavior. It’s not a cop-out as some may think to say that they are being influenced.

If you know the Word of God, then you know each day we have a choice to submit to the will of God or to our own will. We can either be a part of the expanding Kingdom of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ of Nazareth who came in the flesh and died for our sins, or Satan’s kingdom. Choose this day who you will serve.

Stand for righteousness 

The Lord has given us everything we need. Do we believe that? Do we trust in the FINISHED work of the Lord Jesus? Because if we do, we will walk, talk and fight like it. The words we speak and the life we live will reflect what we believe. 

But in walking out that purpose, and living for Him, I am in fact, taking up my cross, and following Him. That put me on the enemy’s radar. I realized every thought wasn’t my own; thoughts that contradict what the Lord says about me. I must cast down thoughts contrary to His Word and I encourage you to do the same.

I can talk all day about the bible. The devil cares nothing about that; he comes to church as well. However, he cares if we live for Jesus. Living a life set apart for God which is sanctification will put you on his radar, but Jesus will protect you. (Psalms 91)

We must know who and what we are dealing with. We win! that’s our outcome, and we must daily walk by faith and not sight testing to see if we are in the faith. When we fall, we repent and try again. Never stop. Paul said in Philippians 1:6 that this work that Jesus began in us won’t be finished until He returns. In the meantime, lets fight the good fight of faith. 

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Spiritual armor

Just like in a natural war, the soldiers wear their armor. We too, have armor. 
Let’s read Ephesians 6: 10-18,

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;
15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

Priorities people!

I don’t watch the main stream news often, but I catch it here and there. I also see information on social media. It’s hard to deny that we are in an interesting time in biblical prophecy and the devil knows that his time is short. Don’t allow the distractions to blind you; get your own house in order. 

People are arguing on social media whether celebrities are getting saved or not, when many of our own families are struggling in that area. Are we praying for them? Are we rallying around our neighbors?  I have much to keep me on my knees praying, in just dealing with my family.

We must focus. Pray! Fast! Guard our hearts.

Limit the time spent on those websites and chat rooms gossiping or arguing with someone about people who don’t directly affect our lives. Don’t engage. The Lord said at John 3:16 that God so loved the world and that whosoever will believe on Him will not perish, and He also said in Matthew 7 that we would know them by their fruit. So whatever the case, fruit will follow. Don’t make it a matter of debate. Pray for everyone to come to an accurate knowledge of truth. Pray that they come to know the Jesus of the bible. Our position is that of love and prayer. We are to be the light and the salt of the Earth.

We can’t let the enemy have us walking around like we don’t know who our Father is or our identity in Him. This is the warfare of the mind to get you all in your feelings. Following feelings will get you in trouble. Of course, you are allowed to feel, but don’t stay in a place of anger, hate, mistrust or unforgiveness. To put it plainly, the enemy is on his job, and working over time. What are we doing?

Don’t allow the enemy to set up root in your mind and heart. Take control of your thoughts. Again, to do that, you must be mindful of what you watch and listen to daily, and conversations you partake in. Not to mention, you must get some Word in you daily, eat your spiritual food, as you do the natural. Remember, Jesus is in control; believe in Him! Nothing is happening, nor can it, without His consent. There is no name above His name, meaning His authority. Allow Jesus to be your Saviour and Lord.

In closing

…. Eat the meat and throw out the bones with the mass amount of information we are being flooded with. Listen Y’all, to know truth, you must study the bible and the Holy Spirit will guide you into all truth. If you don’t have the Holy Spirit, pray and ask for it. He will give it to you.

I love you all. This was on my heart. There is much more I could say, but it’s already too long. 🙂 I pray you are being watchful in this hour, showing love and praying for the return of our Lord Jesus. Being determined to put on the whole Armor of GOD today, and everyday knowing as the Word says that the suffering of this present time is not worthy to be compared to the glory that will be revealed in us.

Bless you all,

My dream: Sudden destruction

My dream from February 4, 2019

I had a dream that I was in a city and I was privy to the people having negotiations with the government.

Then I discerned that they were being deceptive and I told the people “It’s a trap let’s go!”

And I heard one of the officials saying, “Just sign right here; Agree to the deal and it’s done.”

It seemed like as soon as they agreed bombs went off.

I started to run and some people did as well. Houses were blowing up. It was a terrible sight.

We all ran to this mountain and then went over the mountain and it was a different scene. It was like a different city.

I said to someone, “Get ready cause this is your new home. It’s way better than before.”

I showed them the land. It was beautiful land with scenery as a beautiful park.

We walked through a house, like a tour.

And then I woke up.

The Lord has told me to release this dream. Things are no as they seem. There is deception afoot, but none of it is taking the Lord by surprise. He is allowing some to see and warn.

May the grace and mercy of God keep you.

Seek His face and watch and pray. 🙏🏽❤️

Our mandate is to trust Him

My night consisted of dreams and the Holy Spirit saying to tell the people to trust God, that this is a time to trust God and not lean on our own understanding and to acknowledge God in all of our ways. (Proverbs 3:5,6)

Then I started hearing singing and I recognized it was the ending to a song, over and over about trust. I then woke up and there was a scripture in my notification that said, “But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.” Jeremiah 17:7 NLT

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This was a clear message, and it got my attention. I know how the Lord speaks to me, so upon further prayer and quiet time to listen, the Lord revealed that changes will come suddenly, good and bad. Be alert, and stay prayerful. Huge events will happen in our world. There is a spirit of antichrist in the world preparing for the AntiChrist. There is also a spirit of division that will grow within the church and world. You will see more that was in the dark coming to the light. The Lord is not to be mocked.

Walk by faith and not sight, with what you see going on around you and even within your family. I am doing the same. There are things in my life that looking on the surface could shake my faith, but God has proven Himself to me, so that I can wait on Him and be of good cheer. (John 16:33)

Adjust your thinking and be mindful of what you’re taking in on a regular basis; what you see and hear.

  • Read your Word daily
  • Pray daily
  • Worship daily
  • Fast weekly
  • Seek Godly counsel
  • Endure through your trials
  • Be mindful of the words you speak
  • Practice silence; Talk less and listen more
  • Desire God’s will above yours
  • Be light and salt

It’s the mercy and grace of God that keeps us and nothing we can do to earn righteousness, but there are things we can do do hear Him clearer. We can adjust ourselves to spend quiet time with Him. (1 Kings 19: 11-13) There are things we can do to please Him. (Proverbs 16:7 | Romans 8:8)

If you belong to God, know that your citizenship is in heaven. With that being the case, adjust your thinking to a kingdom citizen. (Philippians 3:20) There is a kingdom of darkness and God’s Kingdom. We can further one or the other. Think about it. Which kingdom are you advancing by your speech and actions?

The days are getting darker, people more violent, and our world is changing rapidly. it’s not all bad, but good and God is not the same.

But if you’re on the right team, you will be good. God has you covered. Trust Him. Don’t jump teams or stay neutral as people do in sports. Choose a side and ride it out.

Remember on Gods team, we win!

In closing, I know you are going through something because who isn’t? We share this human experience yet our trials don’t take away the magnificence and power of God. We see events on the news and horrific stories being shared on social media daily and it causes worry, anxiety, fear, and in many cases, anger. The Lord wants us to hold on to His word, and ingest it daily, as we do natural food. It will strengthen us.

He is the same God; yesterday, today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8)

I love you all