It wasn’t until I turned 40 that I became alive. Finding out I had breast cancer aided me in my self-discovery.
What I thought was self-love all my adult life turned out to be a woman going along to get along. Since I started writing my memoir in 2017, I’ve had to face some tough truths. Looking at the woman in the mirror is no easy feat.
In fact, even now at 43, I find myself cautious in ways that I would never have been in my twenties. Is that a good thing? Sure, it’s called maturity. Yet, I am speaking of being cautious when it comes to going after my dreams, and walking an unknown path.
Many times, I’ve stumbled and stopped based on feedback from those I love. I’ve come to realize they may not understand my journey. Some struggle with the calling on my life Heck, so do I.
Being called and chosen by God is not an easy undertaking. It requires a daily dying of self. Dying is painful. Dying says that I can’t retaliate when someone hurts me. It tells me to follow the scriptures, and live for God. Dying requires me to walk without knowing where these feet are leading me. In the same token, I can’t concern myself with others in a sense of allowing them to stumble me.
Each day I am discovering more about myself. You see, God saved me out of the world and a debased mindset in 2010. Since then, I have been on a rollercoaster ride, and a great awakening.
I knew God in theory, but now I know Him in an intimate way. We have a solid relationship. Through this relationship, I ‘ve learned to receive the love He has for me. In fact, I’ve learned to love myself, flaws and all. We are all a work in progress, but there should be some progress.
I have a voice and it’s powerful! I am somebody!
I often wonder where would I be had I never left home as a teenager. Everything I have endured brought me to this moment. Our lives are testimonies. My life is a testament to the goodness of God. I am a witness that He is faithful, and His mercy endures forever.
In the past, I would latch on to people because of my past. I didn’t feel I deserved true love because of the things that I did. I messed up so much. I allowed men to use my body. I thought it was a testament to my power that they wanted me, but it was actually low self-esteem.
My amazing discovery was loving myself. The quirky side, the serious side, the sensual side, the nerdy side, the dreamer and visionary, and more.
I know that my life is a sum of decisions that I made. The Lord weaved Himself in it and told me He called and chose me for His Glory. He then shifted my path and allowed me to go through different trials which strengthens my faith.
I know who I am and how to love, not only me, but others. This is an amazing discovery!
I want to help others discover themselves and their self-worth. It doesn’t matter what you did. What matters is what you’ve learned, and where do you go from here? I am not my mistakes! Through my journey, you will see bravery, authenticity, and an overcomer to the Glory of God!
Writing my memoir, “Everybody Kneeling ain’t Praying” was difficult. I confronted issues that I preferred to keep hiding away. It was in pure obedience that I am sharing my story. The word says that we are overcomers by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony.
And so I forge ahead, with the Lord leading me. This feels like a journal entry LOL. Oh well. I have embraced this side as well. I am a writer, and have been since a child.
My contributions count.
I’m excited for more amazing discoveries as I continue on my journey. Thanks for reading and God bless you.
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Have you ever wondered, if Jesus was still on the throne?
This is October and has been designated breast cancer awareness month. I am a 2 year survivor and thankful. I think daily of my deliverance from cancer and the new eyes that it has given me. I have a new respect for life.
When I did a self-breast check in my shower in 2016, I felt a lump and was instantly alarmed. I did get checked and further test revealed that cancer was indeed present I my breast. During surgery it was discovered that not only was it in my breast but it had invaded the lymph nodes under my arm. I was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer. The surgeon was confident that he removed all of the tumor, but not that there weren’t active cancer cells floating about in my body, hence Chemotherapy was proposed to me, and after that, Radiation therapy. I was confused and scared. I had received a word that I would not die, that this wasn’t unto death, but that I had to go through with it. Did I want to? Oh no. I cried and I prayed to God, Please take this away. I don’t want cancer Lord. I don’t want this trial. It’s too hard. I’m scared. All of that and more was coming out of my mouth and on my heart. The Lord, being the good father He is, comforted me. He sent me words of comfort through others, and the presence of Himself which was and is amazing
Cancer kills people every day. It has not political affiliation, no gender or race target; It gets everyone. Your finances are not a factor. Millionaires die of cancer also. Cancer is a pestilence and the bible speaks in Matthew 24 of pestilences in various places. Even through cancer sickness and death, has Jesus stepped off the throne? No. We don’t understand the many trials and tribulations that we encounter, and knowing that others are going through the same doesn’t always make us feel better. We don’t want to go through anything life threatening. Who would choose if they had a choice? I wouldn’t. If I had a choice, my parents would still be alive, my friends, my cousin…my body wouldn’t have been attacked by the disease of cancer.
Everything that befalls us is not Gods will. God is good! We are in a fallen world, with a fallen nature. Sin is rampant. Food, water, and the air is polluted. We have a very real enemy that wants to take our lives by any means at his disposal.
We don’t know when our days are up, but we know our life is in God’s hands. We know that there are appointed times of everything as it says in Ecclesiastes.
Do we get angry with the Lord for the trials that befall us? Why me Lord? Then the infamous saying of “Why not you” comes behind it.
My mindset was most important during this time. I realized that I could let anger and depression set in. I was not a foreigner to these emotions. I suffered depression in the past, and was even medicated for it. The time of my cancer diagnosis, I lost my mother suddenly and my dad soon after. My finances were in disarray.
Now who would chose that? I made a decision to trust God. I could have stayed in my head, crying and wallowing in my misery being alive for all intent and purposes but dead inside. Dead because many days I would be moving through the days with no life. Just walking through making the appropriate responses, but having no joy or peace. The Lord didn’t say that we wouldn’t be without trials, in fact He specifically said that we would be. However, He also said that He would be with us and never leave us. (John 16:33| Deuteronomy 31:8)
Jesus is still on the throne; He hasn’t lost His power. We aren’t here for nothing. There is purpose in us all. He chose us before the foundation of the world. Our life is to bring Him glory; we are His witnesses. Even through trials we show that He is real. These last 2 years were difficult but they catapulted me in my faith and trust in my God. They took me to higher heights and deeper depths knowing that I could only depend on God.
I am encouraging you today that no matter what the situation is, look to the hills where your help comes from. We have seasons of quiet and peace, but there are also ones of turmoil and pain. What do we learn during those times? Do we self-reflect? Are we spending it saying why me Lord. Questions are ok, but move on to thought provoking self-reflection. Think on the Lord and His word. What does it say; what is He trying to accomplish through you.
We tend to think of ourselves as single entities apart from others but we are all intrinsically connected. I’ve learned that one person can affect many. We’ve seen it throughout history; one person can bring change. Our position of faith can encourage others. Even if our external situations aren’t changed right away, know that God is still there. Many things didn’t go bad overnight, nor will He always change them for the better overnight. Can you trust Him in the middle?
They’re lessons to be learned in the process. Whether it’s sickness, finances, unruly children, marital problems, etc. Allow God to be God, and stay in position of prayer, love, trust and complete dependency on Him. The enemy is counting on us walking by sight, and not faith and he makes sure we see and focus on the external. God is concerned about our internal. He changes people from the inside out. He’s concerned about our heart.
Jesus is still on the throne. He is in power regardless of what external situations may say. Let your heart not be troubled. The Lord says to believe in Him. True belief is a position. It’s a determined place; a mindset, a choice. Its faith, and it doesn’t waiver because of external circumstances. We will never know everything God is doing, and that is where the uncomfortable part comes in. Even in receiving a word, He reveals by and by, even prophets know in part.
Imagine yourself closing your eyes and falling backwards. You don’t know if someone will catch you or not. The thought is uncomfortable at the very least. But this is how we live every day. Every day we are falling backwards throwing caution to the wind, trusting and knowing that our God will catch us. With this reassurance in Him, we can stand the torrential rains and winds that befall us. We have each other to lean on, and our Lord who will never leave or forsake us. Don’t walk around sad because of external circumstances. The best thing we can do for anyone is to pray for them and trust that God will handle the situation. We aren’t God, and I remind myself of that regularly when I interfere too much in what He’s doing in my family’s life. It hurts to be a bystander and watch them go through, but it will be for their good, and ours.
Jesus is still on the throne, and we must never forget that. When we look at the world, and all that the enemy is doing we tend to glorify him instead of Jesus. We talk so much about what he is doing and he loves it. He isn’t bigger than Jesus. The word says darkness would rise, but our light, individually and collectively will shine even brighter. We shine when we don’t hide our lamps. Instead, we sit on the hilltop for all to see, and that isn’t based on circumstances. We shine despite circumstances to show who our God is and what He can do. We shine in a world of darkness, sickness, violence and turmoil. We shine because Jesus is real and He chose us.
We accepted his call. We belong to him and we trust the path that he has set for us. We shine being a living witness of the realness of our Lord and Savior as those we love, and some we don’t even know reject him in the world. The world is changing, many keep saying that, but understand that Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. The world lowers it standards, but God hasn’t’.
Throughout biblical history there has always been a remnant of those in the world who take God at his word regardless of the changing times. Even still, our position is that of love and compassion, yet a firm foundation and holding on to truth.
Stay strong and be quick to give a response to what you believe. Hold fast to what you’ve learned and witnessed with your own experiences and those around you. Jesus is still on the throne!
As Believers we encounter spiritual warfare often. It’s not a matter of “if” you will encounter it, but “when”. The Lord said to take up our cross and follow Him, and in doing so, we are not following the ways of the world, but the ways of Jesus as found in the bible; the Word of God
The enemy attacks our mind; that’s the battleground. The Word says that we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but principalities and spiritual wickedness in high places. With that being the case, stay alert and be prepared to fight.
2nd Corinthians 4-6 (KJV) states: 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds; 5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; 6 And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled.
The plan of the enemy
When the enemy comes around messing with me, I get angry. I go to war and oppose him. I am more than a conqueror and he is a defeated foe. I am fighting from a place of victory! I’ve seen in my walk things come to stop me from following the Lord. It seems after I tackle one giant, after a while another equally ugly and large one comes. Thankfully, the Holy Spirit teaches me how to war in the spirit, and to rest in God. I understand satan is looking to kill, steal and destroy
The enemy comes to thwart the plan of God in your life. The Word says if we first submit to God, then resist him, he will flee. (James 4:7) Do you resist him or are you in agreement with him? You can’t oppose him if you’re ok with the oppression and bondage; if you’re comfortable with it. You may say “This is just the way I am”. I used to say that for most of my life until I learned the truth. I learned that I was a child of God; that He chose me before the foundation of the world, and that there is a purpose for my life—greater than I could have imagined.
The enemy lied to me most of my life, and I unknowingly believed him, and allowed him in my life. I made many agreements with him until my eyes were opened to truth, and Jesus delivered me. Now I see the enemy from afar off, and although through satan’s trickery, I still take the bait sometimes, but once I realize it, I put a stop to it immediately. I decree the Word of God, and correct my thoughts. To the Glory of God.
When we take our eyes off God and look at our problems, the enemy is winning. The enemy is Satan, and the bible refers to him as the father of lies. He will have you all in your feelings, beingled by them, looking at the people instead of realizing the people are being influenced in their behavior. It’s not a cop-out as some may think to say that they are being influenced.
If you know the Word of God, then you know each day we have a choice to submit to the will of God or to our own will. We can either be a part of the expanding Kingdom of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ of Nazareth who came in the flesh and died for our sins, or Satan’s kingdom. Choose this day who you will serve.
Stand for righteousness
The Lord has given us everything we need. Do we believe that? Do we trust in the FINISHED work of the Lord Jesus? Because if we do, we will walk, talk and fight like it. The words we speak and the life we live will reflect what we believe.
But in walking out that purpose, and living for Him, I am in fact, taking up my cross, and following Him. That put me on the enemy’s radar. I realized every thought wasn’t my own; thoughts that contradict what the Lord says about me. I must cast down thoughts contrary to His Word and I encourage you to do the same.
I can talk all day about the bible. The devil cares nothing about that; he comes to church as well. However, he cares if we live for Jesus. Living a life set apart for God which is sanctification will put you on his radar, but Jesus will protect you. (Psalms 91)
We must know who and what we are dealing with. We win! that’s our outcome, and we must daily walk by faith and not sight testing to see if we are in the faith. When we fall, we repent and try again. Never stop. Paul said in Philippians 1:6 that this work that Jesus began in us won’t be finished until He returns. In the meantime, lets fight the good fight of faith.
Just like in a natural war, the soldiers wear their armor. We too, have armor. Let’s read Ephesians 6: 10-18,
10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. 11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. 13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: 18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;
I don’t watch the main stream news often, but I catch it here and there. I also see information on social media. It’s hard to deny that we are in an interesting time in biblical prophecy and the devil knows that his time is short. Don’t allow the distractions to blind you; get your own house in order.
People are arguing on social media whether celebrities are getting saved or not, when many of our own families are struggling in that area. Are we praying for them? Are we rallying around our neighbors? I have much to keep me on my knees praying, in just dealing with my family.
We must focus. Pray! Fast! Guard our hearts.
Limit the time spent on those websites and chat rooms gossiping or arguing with someone about people who don’t directly affect our lives. Don’t engage. The Lord said at John 3:16 that God so loved the world and that whosoever will believe on Him will not perish, and He also said in Matthew 7 that we would know them by their fruit. So whatever the case, fruit will follow. Don’t make it a matter of debate. Pray for everyone to come to an accurate knowledge of truth. Pray that they come to know the Jesus of the bible. Our position is that of love and prayer. We are to be the light and the salt of the Earth.
We can’t let the enemy have us walking around like we don’t know who our Father is or our identity in Him. This is the warfare of the mind to get you all in your feelings. Following feelings will get you in trouble. Of course, you are allowed to feel, but don’t stay in a place of anger, hate, mistrust or unforgiveness. To put it plainly, the enemy is on his job, and working over time. What are we doing?
Don’t allow the enemy to set up root in your mind and heart. Take control of your thoughts. Again, to do that, you must be mindful of what you watch and listen to daily, and conversations you partake in. Not to mention, you must get some Word in you daily, eat your spiritual food, as you do the natural. Remember, Jesus is in control; believe in Him! Nothing is happening, nor can it, without His consent. There is no name above His name, meaning His authority. Allow Jesus to be your Saviour and Lord.
…. Eat the meat and throw out the bones with the mass amount of information we are being flooded with. Listen Y’all, to know truth, you must study the bible and the Holy Spirit will guide you into all truth. If you don’t have the Holy Spirit, pray and ask for it. He will give it to you.
I love you all. This was on my heart. There is much more I could say, but it’s already too long. 🙂 I pray you are being watchful in this hour, showing love and praying for the return of our Lord Jesus. Being determined to put on the whole Armor of GOD today, and everyday knowing as the Word says that the suffering of this present time is not worthy to be compared to the glory that will be revealed in us.
My night consisted of dreams and the Holy Spirit saying to tell the people to trust God, that this is a time to trust God and not lean on our own understanding and to acknowledge God in all of our ways. (Proverbs 3:5,6)
Then I started hearing singing and I recognized it was the ending to a song, over and over about trust. I then woke up and there was a scripture in my notification that said, “But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.” Jeremiah 17:7 NLT
This was a clear message, and it got my attention. I know how the Lord speaks to me, so upon further prayer and quiet time to listen, the Lord revealed that changes will come suddenly, good and bad. Be alert, and stay prayerful. Huge events will happen in our world. There is a spirit of antichrist in the world preparing for the AntiChrist. There is also a spirit of division that will grow within the church and world. You will see more that was in the dark coming to the light. The Lord is not to be mocked.
Walk by faith and not sight, with what you see going on around you and even within your family. I am doing the same. There are things in my life that looking on the surface could shake my faith, but God has proven Himself to me, so that I can wait on Him and be of good cheer. (John 16:33)
Adjust your thinking and be mindful of what you’re taking in on a regular basis; what you see and hear.
Read your Word daily
Seek Godly counsel
Endure through your trials
Be mindful of the words you speak
Practice silence; Talk less and listen more
Desire God’s will above yours
Be light and salt
It’s the mercy and grace of God that keeps us and nothing we can do to earn righteousness, but there are things we can do do hear Him clearer. We can adjust ourselves to spend quiet time with Him. (1 Kings 19: 11-13) There are things we can do to please Him. (Proverbs 16:7 | Romans 8:8)
If you belong to God, know that your citizenship is in heaven. With that being the case, adjust your thinking to a kingdom citizen. (Philippians 3:20) There is a kingdom of darkness and God’s Kingdom. We can further one or the other. Think about it. Which kingdom are you advancing by your speech and actions?
The days are getting darker, people more violent, and our world is changing rapidly. it’s not all bad, but good and God is not the same.
But if you’re on the right team, you will be good. God has you covered. Trust Him. Don’t jump teams or stay neutral as people do in sports. Choose a side and ride it out.
Remember on Gods team, we win!
In closing, I know you are going through something because who isn’t? We share this human experience yet our trials don’t take away the magnificence and power of God. We see events on the news and horrific stories being shared on social media daily and it causes worry, anxiety, fear, and in many cases, anger. The Lord wants us to hold on to His word, and ingest it daily, as we do natural food. It will strengthen us.
He is the same God; yesterday, today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8)
Stay dressed for action and keep your lamps burning.
If you follow me, you know that I am a dreamer. Not in the whimsical way of fantasy, but in a spiritual way, where God communicates with me. (Some of you still call that fantasy…) But truly, it is amazing and I love to go to sleep, because my dream life is so vivid. I know many of you can relate, because God is pouring out His Spirit in these days.
I had this particular dream that I am going to share with you on November 29, 2018.
Jesus was in my dream speaking to many ladies. There were so many… more than I could even count. They were all standing in front of Jesus holding a candle with a fire lit. He said to some of the ladies that their fire will go out and to others it will never go out. He was specific – “Yours will go out,” and “Yours will last forever” that type of thing. He said to one “You seek a title,” and to another “You seek fame and fortune,” to another “You seek me only.” I was standing beside Him observing all of this, and I asked Him “Why?” He said because of the intent of their heart. Those seeking fame, fortune and title will have the fire but it will go out. “And those with a heart for my people and ministering in sincerity, the fire will never go out. My Spirit will stay rested upon them. I am looking at the heart. “
This was a sobering dream – a warning dream, and the Lord said to share it with this message, and those with ears to hear will receive. Jesus said that some of our lights will burn forever and some will go out, even though it’s burning right now. Many will be deceived and caught up with the cares of this world, believing they are saved. It will be like the scripture in Matthew that says, many will say Lord we prophesied in your name, and He said that He never knew them. That is found here: Matthew 7:21-23
The Candle represents the light of God/Light of Christ.
We are living in a time where it will become apparent who the true Christians are. Many call themselves servants and followers of Jesus, but a line will be drawn. The rubber will meet the road, and the truth will show. The Lord is not mocked. Whatsoever we sow, we shall reap. (Galatians 6:7-9)
Our motives are important to God. We must test ourselves daily whether we are in the faith or not.( 2 Corinthians 13:5) We have the ability to pretend, and can show one face to the world and another to our brothers and sisters in Christ, but all faces are seen by God. He is saying to us that He is watching, and things in the dark will come to light. You don’t want your candle burning out and losing the light of Christ. That is a scary thought!
Daily we make choices, and those choices affect our life either immediately or down the road. This is a spiritual and natural law- reaping and sowing. You can’t get away from it, therefore, we must make wise choices.
I think, well, actually I know, because I have been guilty of this: When we don’t always see immediate results of our bad decisions, we tend to think all is well, and that we have gotten away with something. When the reaping season comes we don’t always understand why all hell is breaking loose because we don’t contribute it to the thing(s) we may have done in the past (or present.) Ecclesiastes 8:11-12.
In other words, we cannot do whatever we want, no matter how much that is encouraged in the world. And as a former free spirit who did whatever she wanted, I can attest that God does not approve of that type of mindset and lifestyle.
You will face opposition living a holy and set apart life for God. Expect it. If you read your Word, you will see that true Christ followers always had opposition from the world because they were different. There was; however, a remnant of true followers. Same will be true today. I encourage you to fight the good fight of faith. This is a fight. Didn’t you know? The enemy is after our soul.
It’s important to realize that we are deceived because he shows up as an angel of light, and not with red horns. For example, as a job that keeps you from church and/or your family. He shows up in putting lying thoughts, that are contrary to what God says about you, in your mind- Lies that shake you and make you question if it’s even worth it being a Christian. He shows up as doubt, mistrust of God, and condemnation. He will come wherever he sees an opening, believe me.
Moreover, we must pray daily for God to strengthen us from fear of man, which is a genuine fear. We don’t want to water down God’s Word for fear of how it will be received. Daily we see and hear of reports of people in the world increasing in their hate of anything relating to Jesus. Good is spoken of as evil, and evil as good in today’s society. The bible is getting pushed out, and not looked upon as an authority on how we should live. People are worshipping the universe, and not the one who created it. There is alot going on and it will get worse. If the Lord tarry, this will be a real test of faith for us as a body of believers.
The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom as the Bible says. People can kill our body only but God is the one who can raise us from the dead to eternal life. So fear God above man. (Matthew 10:26-28)
In a Nutshell
So what am I saying? This world and its cares are falling away. With that in mind, what manner of person should you be? What’s important to you? Living for the day, or eternally? What about your family? What are you striving after? (2 Peter 3:10) Where does your heart lie?
Build yourself up daily in your most holy faith, and surround yourself with people who are walking with God, as iron sharpens iron. I say it over and over when I write and speak, that we are one body and we need each other. We aren’t meant to walk this walk alone.
Consequently, we choose good or evil every day. Somehow, we think that we can continue to walk the line, be nasty to others, hold grudges, back bite, sow discord etc, and think God isn’t watching or because as I stated earlier, no repercussions have occurred. God desires us all to be saved and is patient with us, but that will not always be the case. Yes, He is merciful, and full of loving kindness, but never forget He is the lion of Judah and one day we will all stand before Him to give an account.
I am careful with my words now because I will give an account for every word that I speak. I didn’t always think that way, and I still fall short, but by the grace of God, as I keep growing in my knowledge of Him, reading and studying the bible, I am more conscious of how I walk this Christian walk daily. (Matthew 12:36) I encourage you to do the same.
We must live in this world, but we better wear it like a loose garment so that we aren’t caught up in it, because our very lives depend on it. We are in the last hour, and Jesus will return soon. I don’t know a date, and neither do you, but I know we are to watch and pray. In the meantime, lets preach the gospel and make disciples, knowing that Jesus is with us.
Love people, speak about the goodness of our Saviour, enjoy the blessings that God bestows upon you, but check your motives daily. Are you seeking recognition? Title? Fame and/or fortune? Or do you genuinely want to see people saved? He said some specific words in my dream. Seek HIM ONLY. That is our mandate. Seek God and His righteousness. Keep the main things the main thing. He will take care of everything else according to His will.
Let’s keep pressing, leaning on the Lord daily for ALL of our needs. Will we be people who trust God for their salvation, but not their daily needs? He knows what we need, and will take care of us, even give us the desires of our hearts, but there is a condition. (Matthew 6:33: ; Psalm 37:4)
Trust and lean on Him every day, understanding that He promised to direct our path. (Proverbs 3:5-6) God loves us! So much that He sent His son, Jesus to die for us sinners. He who knew no sin became sin for us, so that we could live! To save us!
I read and studied them as I reflected on my life, circumstances and state of mind.
Perspective means a mental view or prospect.
-way of looking
It’s how you view things. And how many know that HOW you VIEW things is EVERYTHING?
Have you heard the saying that life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of HOW you react to it?” Your reactions are tied to your viewpoint of said situations. How do you interpret what is going on? Our attitude and perspective, shapes our beliefs and desires.
What if your perspective was that life happens? Things will occur and you have to role with it? Or that woe is me because life happens and you lose all coping mechanisms, when things are tough?
I posted a meme before on my Instagram, and I will share it here.
It sums up my perspective as it relates to life. Walking with God through my various trials has helped me to grow stronger in this viewpoint. I understand that He is with me, and I will not fall.
Situations, especially tough ones, show us what we are made of.
Have you ever heard of fight or flight? I had that bad. I would either stand strong and fight or run away. I would leave relationships when they were too hard, or a job. That is a natural response to a perceived harmful event, attack or threat to survival. It could be something mentally or physically, but you may want to run away from it to not deal with it. Or you may stay and fight through it. Fight or flight is how we deal with stress. Perspective will help in this instance as well
Through my trials I’ve learned endurance. I am actually living out Philippians 4: 11,12. I have learned to be content in all situations. Consequently, I know what it’s like to have plenty and not so much. I don’t put that on the enemy either. I know that the Lord is making, shaping and molding me. I am a willing servant, and have the understanding that in the making process things get chopped off. In the fire it burns sometimes, but we come out pure as gold.
God provides ALL of my needs.
Over the last 2 years, our finances went from 2 incomes to 1. Needless to say, that is a huge change when it happens right after purchasing your first home, with 2 car notes, insurance, children, and all the daily expenses that come with living. We were used to plenty. We ate out regularly, socialized and attended movies and what not. We did allot that required money. I paid for whatever my children wanted to do, because I worked a lot and although I was gone to work, they had the funds to do what they needed. (Later I came to understand that they needed me, more than the money)
What am I saying? I am saying that I had a choice. God said to leave my salon while I was going through cancer. He said that He had something better for me and that He wanted me to merge into who I was. That it was time for me to be in ministry. This is part of my ministry–teaching through writing and speaking on my weekly broadcast. I could have chosen to obey or disobey, as my free will permitted.
What I found was that Jesus was no longer my first love, but making money, keeping up my lifestyle, and being able to buy what I wanted was. I didn’t know it at the time, until He allowed me to be sat down. My perspective had to change, and it has.Glory to God! God has been taking care of me, and my family. What do your actions say about your perspective? Think about it. What situation do you find yourself in currently? How do you view it?
Now, I understand that everyone does not have that perspective, but I am encouraging you to adapt it. I am pleading with you to believe the report of the Lord who promises to never leave nor forsake you. He says that we are more than conquerors through Jesus Christ and no weapon that is formed against us shall prosper. Do you believe that? Not understand it in theory, but BELIEVE it? Do you have confidence it it’s truth even without the absolute proof of seeing it. That’s faith. True faith. You don’t know cause you don’t SEE it, but you TRUST and absolutely BELIEVE because God says so. You believe HE is so and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. Faith is the substance of things hoped for yet not seen. This will keep you. Faith will keep you in a peaceful place. A place where you wait on the Lord and be of good courage. Knowing that others are suffering afflictions as well will keep you. Sharing testimonies and fellowshipping with your brothers and sisters will keep you.
Our present suffering does not compare to the joy that awaits us. Let’s keep the main thing (Jesus) the main thing. The enemy wants us in bondage. He wants us in the bondage of fear. Fear of losing what we have, fear of death, fear of perception, so much fear. He wants us to walk by sight and not faith. He wants us to be all in our emotions and our flesh. It takes intentionality and a changed mindset to walk out our faith in a courageous way. It take a renewed mind to disconnect from what the masses are doing. You can live and enjoy your life, but understand that God and His kingdom must be your portion. It must be your focus. God promises to work everything else out for you if you seek His Kingdom and it’s righteousness because one things for sure, He knows what you stand in need of. (Matthew 6:33,34)
Endurance of Trials
Cancer taught me that my total dependency is on God. I couldn’t save my life, nor could money. Only God can do that. There are millionaires that die from cancer even after trying all types of treatments. My vehicles, home, and whatever else couldn’t save me. Understand that our jobs can’t save us. Most of us are a paycheck away from homelessness. Do you know that? What if the banks closed and you didn’t have access to your money? What if there was a blackout? Do you see what I’m saying? Or a natural disaster where you must evacuate. WHO do you depend on? Don’t wait until disaster to call on God for help. You need to have Him now! And have Him in the proper prospective. Choose to follow Him today!
Losing my mom suddenly was super tough for me to go through. I learned that I could do nothing to change that; however, the Lord let His Spirit fall upon me and gave me peace. My dad was dying from cancer as we both were battling and all of that hurt like you cannot believe and still hurts today because I miss them so much. I then lost my beautiful young cousin suddenly from Lupus complications. They are all resting and I am still here going through. Death of loved ones hurt, yet I still choose to adopt the viewpoint of: Things change–It will be ok. I never thought it would be ok suffering that type of pain, but time heals. It makes things more bearable. Focusing on the Lord, living for Him, helping others and getting out of my own head, makes it better. Understanding that my life woes are not everything. Sometimes we need to get out of our box, and look around. There are many that have less, and are happier. Why? Perspective.
The End of the Matter
In conclusion, My perspective changed through the loss of both my parents, battling stage 3 breast cancer and a huge change in my financial status. I can’t add one cubit to my life! Not even one. God is my source for everything. The constant has always been God. He does not and has not changed in any way. I’ve grown to love Him so much more. I know Him and He knows me. God knows my name, and it is written in the Lambs book of life. I understand that He chose me for such a time as this, and regardless of any situation I look to the Hills where my help comes from.
Sadly, this world is in labor pains, and as a people we are all experiencing some form of trial and tribulation in our life, whether we are directly or indirectly connected to it. We are in the end times, and the birth pains are progressive. Things will not get better until Jesus comes. Man CANNOT save us or make life better, no matter what they say. Peace and security is an illusion and delusion, and once it’s said (and it will be said) (1 Thessalonians 5:3) then sudden destruction will come upon the Earth as we have never seen. That is a prophecy. Trust in God! Jesus is the way, truth and life. (John 14:6) I am excited for His return, yet sad for all that is occurring in the world. But these things must take place.
Finally, I encourage you to ponder this question: What’s your perspective on life?