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An Amazing Discovery

It wasn’t until I turned 40 that I became alive. Finding out I had breast cancer aided me in my self-discovery.


What I thought was self-love all my adult life turned out to be a woman going along to get along. Since I started writing my memoir in 2017, I’ve had to face some tough truths. Looking at the woman in the mirror is no easy feat.


In fact, even now at 43, I find myself cautious in ways that I would never have been in my twenties. Is that a good thing? Sure, it’s called maturity. Yet, I am speaking of being cautious when it comes to going after my dreams, and walking an unknown path.

Many times, I’ve stumbled and stopped based on feedback from those I love. I’ve come to realize they may not understand my journey. Some struggle with the calling on my life Heck, so do I.

Being Called


Being called and chosen by God is not an easy undertaking. It requires a daily dying of self. Dying is painful. Dying says that I can’t retaliate when someone hurts me. It tells me to follow the scriptures, and live for God. Dying requires me to walk without knowing where these feet are leading me. In the same token, I can’t concern myself with others in a sense of allowing them to stumble me.

Each day I am discovering more about myself. You see, God saved me out of the world and a debased mindset in 2010. Since then, I have been on a rollercoaster ride, and a great awakening.


I knew God in theory, but now I know Him in an intimate way. We have a solid relationship. Through this relationship, I ‘ve learned to receive the love He has for me. In fact, I’ve learned to love myself, flaws and all. We are all a work in progress, but there should be some progress.

I have a voice and it’s powerful! I am somebody!

I often wonder where would I be had I never left home as a teenager. Everything I have endured brought me to this moment. Our lives are testimonies. My life is a testament to the goodness of God. I am a witness that He is faithful, and His mercy endures forever.

I Discovered


In the past, I would latch on to people because of my past. I didn’t feel I deserved true love because of the things that I did. I messed up so much. I allowed men to use my body. I thought it was a testament to my power that they wanted me, but it was actually low self-esteem.

My amazing discovery was loving myself. The quirky side, the serious side, the sensual side, the nerdy side, the dreamer and visionary, and more.

I know that my life is a sum of decisions that I made. The Lord weaved Himself in it and told me He called and chose me for His Glory. He then shifted my path and allowed me to go through different trials which strengthens my faith.

I know who I am and how to love, not only me, but others. This is an amazing discovery!

I want to help others discover themselves and their self-worth. It doesn’t matter what you did. What matters is what you’ve learned, and where do you go from here? I am not my mistakes! Through my journey, you will see bravery, authenticity, and an overcomer to the Glory of God!

Writing my memoir, “Everybody Kneeling ain’t Praying” was difficult. I confronted issues that I preferred to keep hiding away. It was in pure obedience that I am sharing my story. The word says that we are overcomers by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony.

And so I forge ahead, with the Lord leading me. This feels like a journal entry LOL. Oh well. I have embraced this side as well. I am a writer, and have been since a child.

My contributions count.


I’m excited for more amazing discoveries as I continue on my journey.
Thanks for reading and God bless you.


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Dear God

Dear God,

I’m trying. I’m resting in you. Today, I’m reflecting over it all. I know you’ve been with me. You’ve been by my side and in front of me. Lord, sometimes I want to scream! Sometimes I want to cry. I am so strong and I hold things together but I don’t always want to. I have to. People are watching: My husband and children are watching. My family, and church members are watching. Clients and strangers are watching. You have me on display.

I’m an example right? That’s what you told me. I’m an inspiration and have to show people how to walk this thing out. I’m a walking epistle. Yeah, and I’m all for that most days.

Lord, I’m trying!

Reflecting, as I lay here in pain. Right now I am fighting emotions. I am in my feelings. I’m down again with another surgery, just when I was feeling somewhat “normal” again. “You’re almost at the finish line,” my cousin says. Yes cousin, almost. But what’s the finish line? Truly? I will always have to deal with something since the diagnosis. A year ago today I had tests done to determine if I had breast cancer. The results of course were positive. And thus the journey began. A new journey. Don’t get me wrong Lord I’m thankful to be alive. I’m thankful for growth. But my body seems like it has never recovered. I don’t care what I look like on the outside, I don’t feel the same, and it’s weird. Well, each day is better than the last. I thank you for that. Thank you for grace.
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I’m a different me. A better me? Sure, spirituality I am. Mentally and emotionally, I’m stable. I’m sane where I use to feel insane sometimes. Physically I am not better. I feel old and achy. I wish I was courageous enough to go with no boobs. This surgery sucks. But I’m not sure I want that or just want to be left alone and speaking from that place. Right now Lord I’m overwhelmed with my limitations from surgery. I’m so active that sitting down is foreign. I feel unproductive, and for a productive girl it’s hard to sit. But it’s needed.

Be still and know….Yes, God I hear you.

Lord, you’ve allowed so much to happen to me. So much…You say, I’m stronger than I know? Yes, I am starting to be aware.
I miss my mom. I wish I could talk to her…hug her.. hear her say my name and laugh with me. My mom understood me best. I miss my dad. He was so fun. Just a cool guy. I cry for them. Everything happened so fast Lord. Just a year. Lord help me! Thank you for being my Comforter. Thank you for your peace that surpasses all understanding.
Before I was saved I didn’t have all these problems. Now, I’ve had to close my business. I’ve lost my mom and dad and fighting a disease that kills people every day. Yes, I’m in remission, but my doctor says my reoccurrence rate is high so she watching me for 5 years. That is on my mind. I must have another surgery next month. That is on my mind. Whose report, you say? Well, I believe Yours, of course. I’m just reflecting.

All will be well! You are my Healer. Yes Lord. I know. I thank you.

I’m anxious for it to be over. What a long year it’s been Lord. Not to you though. A day is as 1,000 years for you.
Be anxious for nothing, yes I know…I hear you…
This journey is so rough emotionally and no one around me understands. They love me and they do the best they can. I love them.

Lord, I’m trying. I lay here trying to be comfortable when all I can do is stay on my back propped up on pillows. I can’t raise my arms. Can’t bend down or lift anything…Yes, I know it’s temporary. I try to stay focused on that fact. Yet sleep eludes me when I close my eyes.

I am thankful my daughter is driving herself to work and school. What a blessing! …Hating that I have to rely so much on her when she’s home to clean and cook. She’s tired. She is the sweetest and does so much for her mommy. My youngest daughter pokes her lips out when asked. That’s teenagers for you. But she does it – sometimes joyfully, sometimes begrudgingly. She’s a sweetheart too but she has a lot of my sass that’s for sure. But honestly, why do I have to ask anyway? They know I keep my house clean. Just do it! Because I can’t. I take good care of them all! It can get frustrating for me. Photo by Jad Limcaco on Unsplash

Lord I’m trying!

You say not to worry and just rest. So what if there’s a little clutter? So what if there’s a few dishes.
Don’t worry. Heal daughter.
You know what? I’m tired of being poked and prodded. Tired of surgeries.
You say to be thankful and I am. I’m thankful that I have a husband who loves me and works hard to take care of us. I’m thankful for my beautiful children. I’m thankful to be alive.
You know what? I feel guilty sometimes that I can’t do the regular things around the house. I feel guilty that I’m not ironing my husbands uniforms. I know I can’t right now. I know I’m limited. It’s temporary. Yes God. I know.
It’s impatience? Forgive me Lord. Sit and stay in your Presence? Focus on you? Yes God. Have mercy Lord.
But, I wish I could ask for help. Lord it’s so hard to ask for these things. My momma did that to me. There is still pride in me Lord. Continue to purge me.
Thank you for letting me vent Lord. Thank you for being a present help in time of trouble.

Sometimes it’s lonely…this route you’re taking me… these wonders you’re showing me. Who would believe me? People believe what they see but you’ve shown me to believe when I don’t see.

You let me see in the Spirit. You give me amazing dreams. I can’t articulate your greatness.
Lord, I’m trying. You’ve told me to rest and not worry. And you know that I do that. Forgive me in this moment. I’m venting. I haven’t slept well. My body aches. I hate complaining. I feel weak complaining.
This is all apart of my process. I’m on a journey. You’ve taken me to a higher level and you aren’t done. I’m grateful. I like to speak open and honest Lord. My concern, always, is that I’m not bringing reproach to your name. I don’t want to do that. Only Glory.
I think of you all the time. All the time. Above anything or anyone.

You call me faithful. Well Lord after all I’ve been through, all I’ve seen, all you’ve brought me out of, how can I not be faithful?

Lord I’m trying!

This thing is an everyday faith walk. No joke. No lie. And I can’t make it looking at anyone else. Not my husband, children, friends, family, or church members. People let me down. I’ve let them down. But you… you are constant. You don’t change. Lord I thank you!!! I give you glory, honor and praise cause you alone are good! Thank you for capturing each one of my tears.

Thank you for changing my life!
I know that you’ve allowed me to go through so much to be a testimony of your goodness. A testament to your ability to keep one in perfect peace, despite any trial. To show that you are a Deliverer, a Healer and Way-maker. Today, I am still in perfect peace. Even now. My joy overshadows any sadness I may temporarily experience.
It’s so different in my household Lord. You’ve made me a housewife. I laugh. Who wanted that? Not me. I’m a career woman. Right? Ha! Lord I’m trying! You’ve shown me that you are my Jehovah Jireh! My provider. The way my income set up, it could be no one or nothing but you Lord!
Why are my thoughts so different? I’m kinder, more patient. Now, I’m thinking of my family. I’m putting my husband first. My children… I use to put the salon first. Put me first. Put getting money first. I used to be selfish Lord. I use to be cut throat. I could cut someone with my words. I can admit it now. I chased money. I loved the freedom it afforded me. Yet I was bound! Lord I thank you! I chase you now! You provide for me and I am not yet what I will become.
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I’ve looked at the woman in the mirror. I’ve faced her head on.

What have you done to me?

You’ve made me soft! I don’t even argue anymore. The fighter doesn’t even argue or fight! Glory! I give a soft answer. Only you God! I want to cook and clean for them. I want to spend time with them. I use to spend so much time at the salon. It was my getaway. Lord you’ve made me a wife. A happy wife! And in response my husband has become more affectionate and loving towards me. There is nothing he wouldn’t do for me. Even cleaning if I asked lol. But I get it. The man works very hard outside our home. I know I’m loved. I feel it. I don’t question my husbands love for me. Even when he’s overwhelmed. This has been hard for him as well. I pray for him. I keep him before you. Strengthen him Lord!

Lord, you are something else. Now I’m smiling. I love you. I love the new mind you’ve given me. I love my forgiving heart.
You’ve allowed so much to fall on me because I can handle it. I’m pretty strong but where I’m weak you show your strength. Lord, I thank you. I’m leaning on you and not my own understanding. My understanding leads to confusion. You aren’t the author of confusion nor do you operate in it. Glory! I know when I’m operating in my flesh. Thank you for discernment. I console myself knowing that you will perfect that which concerns me. I know that you will keep me in perfect peace when my eyes are stayed upon you.
I’ve become peculiar. I’ve always been different, but now I’m “peculiar“ as one of your chosen. That’s what you said. You said, I’m not only called, but I’m chosen. I find comfort in your validation. I find comfort in knowing who I am. I said life was easier before being saved. Not true. It was me doing what I wanted on my own terms not knowing who I was. It was me struggling to find identity through men, women and also career. It was me smoking my days away thinking I’m living it up cause I could afford the good stuff. It was me making money my god. Me with a veil over my eyes.

Lord, I thank you

Thinking because I was making the devil’s money that I was good. I didn’t have to ask anyone for anything. I was truly living in deception. That’s what I know now. Lord, I thank you! The biggest thing you’ve done for me is to change my outlook. I can see! Not only with how I see myself but how I see everything else. I’m walking in complete transparency and for a girl who lived most of her life lying and hiding that’s huge!
I have these moments of reflection. I may even experience frustration and sadness. I’m thankful that they are fleeting moments. I am so aware that it makes me not fit in anywhere. I can’t say things because you’ve told me not too. I’m obedient above all. I fear you. I fear you more than I fear perception.
Lord I go to church and you’ve opened my eyes even there so that I see. Sometimes, I don’t want to see. Seeing can hurt. I feel a sadness. You show me so that I can pray. I want everyone to want you and pursue you. You’re so good! I see the complacency. I see the “It don’t take all that” looks and feel the energy. I see the real and fake love even towards me. I can’t act on it except to show love. To pray. You told me some look at me in wonder. You told me they are curious. Some are downright irritated. Show love. Yes God. I will. I love that you are there. Because you ARE there. Your presence fills the place. Thank you for my church home. I spread my arms to you in submission. I scream Glory and Hallelujah! I don’t care who’s looking. If they knew what I did they would praise you too! You are amazing.
Sometimes I feel so much that it’s hard to contain. Lord, I love you. Yes, I will rest. You know I’m thinking of my book. My deadline. I know you’re laughing. You’re laughing because you got me. You know all things. You gave me the book so I know all will be well. You showed me a glimpse of the plan. You know I’m excited and nervous about it. I want women to read and be encouraged. There’s no turning back for me. Elevator with no floors. I’ll just keep rising but to your glory. Not mine. You know how I feel about that. Your will. Your way.Photo by Hanny Naibaho on Unsplash

Thank you for making me new.

I feel strong and bold knowing that if you’re for me, who can be against me? You said just “live it.” My fruits will be seen from my household and then outwards. I see it Lord. And, others see it. This is a testament to your goodness. You’ve come in like a whirlwind. I thank you. Everything’s falling in line. It fell apart just to come together.

Better than before. Stronger than before. Rest, you tell me. Abide in you. Be encouraged. I hear you Father.

The enemy tries me. But I’m aware. I’m not afraid of him. I see how he creeps in my weak moments. I may be in bed and sore but I can talk! My words have power! God I thank you! You’ve given me spiritual sisters. A bond that I’ve never experienced before. My sisters have been here taking care of me. It brings me to tears, the love they’ve showed me. You’ve blessed me with a spiritual mother who loves me truly. Who prays for me, speaks into my life, gives me advice and correction. She spends time with me. She is a mother of many and I’m thankful to be apart of her life.
Lord, I thank you. I will rest. I will abide. I will listen. I will obey. I will wait. I will acknowledge you in all my ways. I am grateful. You’ve orchestrated stops in my life that I didn’t understand at the time. Lord, I thank you. I remember the dream a few years ago when I asked for a medium slurpee and you gave me one so large I couldn’t even carry it lol. You said that eyes have not seen, nor ears heard, nor has it entered into my heart the things you’ve prepared for me because you know the thoughts you think towards me.
God, I thank you! For every trial, and every encounter I’ve had with you! I thank you for my struggles. I thank you for my wilderness. Sometimes you make me stay hidden. Yet, you allow me moments to come out. Lord, I thank you. I walk in a grace that I didn’t before. Continue to strengthen me. Continue to stretch me. Continue to mold me. Keep me on the Potters wheel. There is no real happiness apart from you. You offer true contentment. True joy and peace. You make me randomly smile. Lord, I love you. I thank you. Keep me forever at your feet. In Jesus name. Amen
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Take the Mask off! I did.

As I sit here reflecting over my life, I am thankful to be alive and in my right mind. I was in such a dark place many times in my life. I had such a veil over my eyes. So much confusion. There were things that happened to me when I was younger that threw me in a tailspin and my life took off in crazy directions. How many can relate?

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The Lord has been dealing with me about my testimony and being transparent. He wants me to share and help others. It is difficult to be completely open. It’s a vulnerable place. The court of public opinion is rough. I think about my family. The ones who don’t know it all. I think of my church members. Yes, everyone has a story. But most don’t tell it for the same reasons that I hesitated. I hesitated with the Lord. I speak boldly with Him. He says to come boldly to the throne and I do.
There are people who talk down on others, but they are doing the same thing. They may preach one message, yet live another. This is what Jesus was saying to the Pharisee. Don’t be a hypocrite.
Be real.
God sees you anyway.
The Lord always shines the light and exposes darkness. He did it with me and countless others. Yet it is to correct our behavior. He is a God of Mercy.

People are coming from all walks of life into the church. Don’t shun them or talk about them. God is calling them. We have to do better! People of God, we must show love. Not fake love either. (Matthew 7:20) Even babies know when you’re not being genuine. This is our commission. To love the Lord and love our neighbor. (Matthew 22:37-39)
I am a human being and I am not immune to these feelings. I am honest to admit them. I remember sharing a bit of my testimony with a sister and she teased me for weeks and called me the name I used when I was in my former life. I didn’t like that. I thought it was insensitive. She was fascinated with the story. I understand that but lets use some tact people. I share my story to show that God can save anyone. He saved Paul who was a murderer. He saved me and He can save you. He can change your life for the better. He did it for me. He can give you peace and joy in the midst of any storm. He is bigger than any circumstance that you may go through. I know this, because I’ve seen it in my life and testimonies of others.
He can save you while you are in church. Just being in the church building isn’t enough. Sometimes we are routinely going. Some people go and leave the same way with no changes taking place in their life. And if that’s you, then you’re missing the mark. You’re missing out on truly having an amazing relationship with God that produces much fruit!
I don’t have a heaven nor hell to put anyone in. And it seems to me that the words the Lord gives me to say can be bold. Even harsh. I tell you what–I’m more afraid of not doing what He tells me than how it’s received. Don’t get offended. But if you do, then I hope it’s offense that brings about action. I hope it brings you to your knees asking God to help you get back on track. I hope it makes you have a healthy fear of Him again. He is our GOD! our CREATOR! I am in such awe of HIM. He is a just God. He loves us, yes, but let’s not treat Him as if He is common. His thoughts are not our thoughts, nor His ways our ways. They’re greater.
I was in the world tough. I was a bisexual woman for many years before God delivered me. I danced, escorted then became a madam. This was all before I was saved. Then after being saved I had other trials. That’s for another post.
I wrote a book about my testimony, and will release it, in the coming months. It was a tough thing to write because it brought up so many emotions for me. There is a lot I buried, and just moved on from. I thank and praise God everyday and throughout the day. Literally, I do. He has changed my life. I am completely sold out to Him. What He did for me is nothing short of miraculous. Even through this cancer journey. so many blessings have come from it. I am transforming everyday. No longer a caterpillar!
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I didn’t know God. Yet He loved me. It was like a compass in my life leading me to Him.
I know that He is a forgiving God. The word says it and I’ve experienced it. I know that He is a powerful God, the word says it and I’ve seen His power demonstrated in my life. I know that He is a Deliverer, the word says it and I have experienced deliverance in many ways!
I know that He is a healer, because He has healed me: My heart, body and mind.

Strongholds are real. Demons are real.


Many people have strongholds, of one thing or another. It is a faulty thinking pattern based on lies and deception (2 Corinthians 10:5) Cast them down!
I truly understand the lure of the world. I understand the temptations of it. Sin is deceitful. Plain and simple. You think you can master it, but it masters you. I danced with the devil. I thought I could control everything. I had a rude awakening.
I thought that I was on my journey and would just continue on.
I’ve been saved and lets move on. No. The Lord started dealing with me about testimony and ALL of it. Whew Lord. That’s a tall order! He started last year with the testimony talk. Before my cancer diagnosis.
I remember my Bishop at church asked us for our testimony and I froze up. What would I write? What would I say? How could I tell them what I’ve done and who I’ve been? This is me being transparent. I thought all these things. I was asked to be apart of a testimony service by another sister for her church and I kept declining, citing work scheduling conflicts. Once I was diagnosed with cancer, I received prophetic words regarding it. It has not stopped. Dreams as well. Ok, Lord, I get it.

But Lord strengthen me, and take me to a place in you where I walk with boldness. That was my prayer.


You see, it’s not about me. It’s about God. I’m apart of His story not the other way around. I didn’t go through all I went through for nothing. The change of my mind is the biggest thing. My thoughts are different. My wants are different. You understand?
You, also, are apart of His story.
He wants us free. Truly free. There is freedom in Him.
No one can hold anything over my head because I’m free!
God is truly with me! The enemy wants me afraid. Wants me to stay quiet and feel ashamed. Oh no! I think not! I’ve been delivered and I’m more than a conqueror. Someone needs to know that! Someone out there needs my testimony. My book will be released and touch many around the world. I speak that and believe that.
I am not a preacher. I am a woman who has been saved by grace. A woman who has made a decision to trust and follow Jesus. A woman who has lived a lifestyle quite contrary to the one she lives now. I have wisdom and knowledge that I’ve gained from the streets and from the Lord! I know people.  I see people. That’s a blessing. God has increased my spiritual discernment and I see clearer than I ever have. I’m excited because there is so much more for me in the future.
I want to encourage you to stay on the Potters wheel.
Let the Lord continue to mold you. He knows who you are.  If you’re living a double life, stop faking in church. Go to God and repent and be delivered. There is so much He wants to show you. He wants to take you deeper in Him. But you cannot be a double minded person. You can’t be lukewarm, or else he says he will spit you out of his mouth (Revelation 3:14-22)
You are lukewarm if you say you are a christian, yet living as if you are not.
And I know it’s a process, but move forward with the process.
Take off the mask and be free!
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It’s Enough!

 

2 Corinthians 12:9 AMP “but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My loving kindness and My mercy are more than enough–always available–regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.”

As Believers, sometimes we feel that we are not enough, or aren’t doing enough. Don’t let us mess up, this leads to feelings of unworthiness. I’ve felt this way before and I thank God for helping me to see who I am and His love for me. We won’t always get it right. If you are experiencing this, do not isolate yourself. The enemy wants you to do that.
God says His grace is sufficient for us. That means it’s enough for us.
He is enough for us! We don’t need to have it all the way figured out. We have Jesus! That is good news. This good work that He started in us won’t be completed until Jesus comes back, as it says in Philippians 1:6.

We don’t have to beat ourselves up. He is enough! He fills in the gaps!

Let God show Himself in your life by understanding your weaknesses and bragging about His strength! Brag on Jesus! It doesn’t matter what situation you find yourself in. Where we are weak, He is strong. The Lord wants us to depend on Him and seek Him daily. He wants us to put Him first, knowing He is enough. I can’t stress that too much. Don’t walk around defeated. The enemy is defeated. Not you!

His love is enough! His mercy is enough! His kindness is enough!

Our Heavenly Father loves you with an everlasting love! Sometimes it’s hard to receive because you aren’t used to it, but slowly as you continue, day by day to trust Him with the 1 day, each day becomes easier. Trust Him with your 1 day. That means to take it day by day.
 You may have some vices you need to work out. The wonderful thing about submission to God is that He cleans you up. You can’t be too filthy. (However, don’t just stay in a place of willful sin. That isn’t what I am saying)
I use to believe that I was too messed up for the Lord to save and forgive, yet He forgave me. He saved me out of my mess. And some of my mess I was still doing after being saved, such as smoking marijuana and regularly drinking. I went back and forth with it, thinking I could control it or that God knows my heart so it’s ok. The Lord showed me that He didn’t want that. He showed me that they were strongholds. (I will discuss those in a separate post)
Glory to God because of His Love, and Mercy. It took longer for me to release myself from my past. I eventually forgave myself, and started walking in confidence.
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I believe the word when it says, If God is for me, who can be against me? (Romans 8:31)
Walk in that. Know it and believe it. Get it deep down in you. Once you realize who you are and who God is, you will not walk around condemned and defeated. You will not be a slave to your vices. You will be empowered. You will trust that God will perfect that which concerns you. (Psalms 138:8)
Don’t trust in anything more than God. Don’t love anything more than God. Don’t put anything before God. Acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will set your path straight. (Proverbs 3:6)
What the Lord has laid on my heart is His love for His children.

I wrote a prayer but add whatever you want to surrender to Him ok? Pray this out loud:
Heavenly Father, today I surrender my problems to you. I surrender my children, my job, my health, my husband, my car, my mind, my emotions, my life and my way! I surrender it all to you Father. I want your will to be done in my life. I say Yes to your will and yes to your way! I pray in the name of Jesus that you will go before me this day and set my path straight. Where I am weak you are strong. Show yourself to me today Father! Show your strength in my life, in the name of Jesus. You say in your word that you will teach me the ways of wisdom and lead me in straight paths. I’m standing on your word and believing you. You lead and I will follow trusting that you will never leave me or forsake me. Today, I will shift the atmosphere wherever I go because He who is in me is greater than He who is in the world.  I pray in the name of Jesus that my light shines ever so brightly and I show love. I thank you for striving with me. I thank you for your grace and your mercies that are new everyday. Thank you Lord and I give you the glory, honor and all the praise. Amen

This is a daily walk but literally take it day by day.
One day at a time. Trusting God this day. Taking up your cross this day. Leaning on Him this day.
Tomorrow will have its own worries. (Matthew 6:34)
Be blessed

Can anything good come out of Nazareth?

Can anything good come out of Nazareth? (John 1:46)

Yes, that is what Phillip said. The people were saying, “Come, we have found the Christ that was spoken of by the prophets. “Some did not believe Jesus was the son of God. “Isn’t that Joseph’s son?” They would ask. “How can he claim to be the son of God or to come down from heaven. We know his parents” they would also say in disbelief.

(paraphrasing John 6:42)

Yes, he was Joseph’s son in the natural. They were correct, but He was Jesus! Son of the living God! He was Immanuel, God with us.

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Our Heavenly Father allowed him to grow and live as a human. He loved us so much that He gave His son. (John 3:16)

He was called to his earthly ministry and baptized at age 30 by his cousin John, the Baptist. (Matthew 3: 13-17)

He knew who he was, but everyone else didn’t. He knew at age 12. Remember when his mother Mary was looking for him in Jerusalem during the Festival of the Passover? He was lost for 3 days, and then they found him in the temple courts among the teachers. Mary said they were anxiously searching for him and Jesus reply at age 12 was,” Why were you searching for me? Didn’t you know I had to be in my Father’s house?”

I just love God!

thank you lord

God will reveal to us who we are. Not everyone can or will accept it. When Jesus was older. His own people did not accept him.

Today people won’t accept you. Not people who knew you before you were saved. Or even now if you’re struggling through some things.
They will say, “Isn’t that so and so’s kid?”
“Didn’t he or she used to do this or that?” or “Oh, now all of a sudden they are anointed to do this or that?”


To the naysayers: Stop talking about people in a negative way, as if you know what God is doing in their lives. You don’t. You will mess around and block something that you had coming.

Yes, God hears it all. Sometimes He will even allow you to hear it.

A prophet is not accepted in his own hometown. (Luke 4:24)

Don’t allow people or yourself to take you out of the will of God. You can actually work against what God is doing. You can be disobedient and He will move to the next willing person.

God has a plan for your life. But, He won’t force you. You have free will.

God will give you a word. He will tell you who you are in Him. You may have it confirmed over and over. It doesn’t matter if it isn’t recognized by those close to you. You may not be recognized in your church or even your family. But God recognizes you. Don’t try to “prove” your gift. God will prove you. If you understand what I mean? Trust His process.

People will say you’re not qualified.
Well, God doesn’t call the qualified.
He qualifies the called!

qualified

1st Corinthians 1:26-27 says, “Remember, dear brothers and sisters, that few of you were wise in the world’s eyes or powerful or wealthy when God called you. Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful.

They can’t understand what’s happening in your life. They can’t receive it because they are looking in the natural. Keep your eyes on the Lord. Stay in daily communication with Him. He will instruct you in all your ways.

He will keep those in perfect peace whose minds are stayed on Him. (Isaiah 26:3)

Don’t be discouraged or dismayed. God knows the thoughts and plans He has for you. Even if what you’re looking at now, doesn’t look like what was said.  He causes those things that are not as though they were.
Trust Him in this season of your life. Psalms 32:8 says, I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will guide you with My eye.

You may wonder how it’s going to work out. As I stated in a previous blog post, “Your reality may not be lining up to what God said”, but you can surely believe His word.

You can believe that what was said will come to pass. It may be suddenly or you may have to wait while He prepares the place for you and you for the place.
Keep trusting Him.


“Can anything good come from that family?” Some may say. Yes you! God will call you from the midst of your family and put you front and center for His glory. He will show others how He can do all things, by your life and testimony. Your past does not matter. If you have been saved, He has forgiven you. Forgive yourself, if necessary and move on to what He has for you.

Is your heart for Him? Are you chasing after Him?

God causes you to be promoted when you are in His will. (Psalms 75:6-7)

God can get your name called and your resume put to the top of the list! He can open doors, no man can shut! That can confuse someone. They are left wondering how that happened for you. It happened because of the favor on your life. God can get financing approved. He will have your mouth open wide saying, “Wow Lord,” as you close on your home. God will amaze you. He will give you favor with Him and man. Trust Him in your journey. As you walk with Him and He reveals things to you, He will place people in your path to help you or for you to help. Stay close to Him in prayer. Stay in His word.

God wants your heart. He wants your life to reflect His glory.
Follow Him. Don’t just believe. (James 2:19)


How did she get this? Or who does He think he is? Oh, you are anointed all of a sudden? 

Let people talk, because they will.


You walk in the path set out for you.
God will bless you and set a table up in the presence of your enemies. (Psalms 23:5)
Unfortunately, some “enemies” are disguised as “friends”


Did you receive a word? Has God confirmed it?
Follow God. Be Bold! Don’t let people stumble you. Don’t allow fear of man to take you off your path.
Don’t allow fear of man to close your mouth when God has given you a word to speak.
Some of you have gifts that you are sitting on, worried about what someone is going to say. Or you are unsure of yourself.

God qualifies you. Remember that. Also, keep in mind that some people do not want to see you succeed. They want to always do better. They don’t want you elevated more than they think you should be. The flesh is nothing to play with!

Stay in order, of course. God does everything in decency and in order. But, if you’re in daily fellowship with Him, you will stay in order. You will discern His will. You will yield to the promptings of the Holy Spirit. You will wait for confirmations. Don’t fight for positions in church because you feel that you are gifted to do something and you’re asked to do something else. Just follow Jesus. That is what it’s all about. Let Him work it out. You can trust that He will.

Don’t allow people to keep you in the past. They will remind you of who you were and what you did.
God is progressive. Move with Him. Yes, you may have been many things. You may still have some ways and habits that God is working out. That’s ok. Keep moving forward. Move with the cloud. This work will continue in you, as it says in Philippians 1:6, until the day of Jesus return. But don’t willfully practice sin. Yes, we are saved by grace.

Do not take the Lord and His grace for granted. (Romans 6:1-2)

Continue striving! Press on and fight the good fight of faith.

don't quit

God does reward us. Stand on His word. Keep pressing.
Has God spoken a word to you?
Are there some things you’re supposed to be doing?
Don’t you feel it rising up in your spirit?
Don’t quench it.
Everything He gives us and gifts us is for His glory. We are supposed to be saving souls by teaching them the truth. Showing them who the Lord is.

We do that by our life. We must live what we preach. 

God will place us in different spheres. You can be in the marketplace, media, teaching, politics, deliverance ministry, pastoring, etc. God has called you to do something. He has called you to make an impact. Don’t continue to sit on your gifts and callings.

Answer the call. Forget the naysayers.

I pray this helped someone.

Be blessed

Identity Crisis of the Christian

who are you

Who or what gives you your identity?

I will say that our identity is shaped when we are young. The environment that we grow up in. Our parents are the first examples we see on how to live and what type of person to be. They teach us our values. They show us what love looks like, and teach us responsibility. We may also get negative examples. Everyone was raised differently. For example, some may get teaching on hate. Hate for others and often times self-hate and low self esteem.  Getting called names as a form of emotional abuse. Some grow up with sexual and/or physical abuse. This will all play a part in what type of adult you will be. Imagine going through all the rough stuff in a christian household.

How does that shape your identity? How do you look at God?

If you are a saved, born again christian, do you know who you are in Christ?

Having a strong sense of who you are in Christ will give you confidence. It will help you walk in the authority that God gives you.

When you get saved you become a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17) Spiritually you are different, and as you grow it will manifest in your thinking and actions. God will start to strip away the layers of hurt you may have experienced as a child, and even as an adult. He will build your trust. He shows Himself first to you as a Father.

So you are now baptized and possibly (hopefully) Holy Ghost filled. All is well!

Not so fast. Getting baptized and even filled with the Holy Ghost itself doesn’t automatically change your behavior.

A relationship with Jesus does that. How do you grow to have this type of relationship with your Lord and Savior?   It grows as does with any relationship. It takes effort. A friendship, a courting, and a marriage takes effort. You must work it for it to work. You must get to know the person by talking with them. Spending time with them. You learn who they are. In the case of Jesus, you have the bible. Read it. Study it. Meditate and ponder over it. Pray, pray and pray again. Go to a bible teaching church and hear the word. Focus on the Lord and what the Word says. Don’t focus on people. They will stumble you. They are imperfect as you are. But do get involved with friendships with people who are living right and have a right relationship with  the Lord so that you can learn from them. Be around Saints that you want to be like. If you are doing the best in your circle that isn’t good. Who are you learning from?

 

circle of friends

 

Knowing who you are in Christ will help you approach your Heavenly Father boldly. He says to come boldly to the throne. (Hebrews 4:16)  You don’t stress about things knowing your Father has you. Knowing His love for you and that He will never forsake you. Yes you can have moments of fear. You can have moments of stress, of “Lord what is going on?”, Just don’t stay there. I believe in allowing yourself to feel. Don’t suppress your feelings. Don’t hesitate in asking God questions. He is your Father. Talk to Him. Keep it real.  He knows anyway. But He wants to know that you trust Him enough to bring it to Him and to ask Him for help. I feel that way with my children as well. I watch them and I don’t call everything out. It feels amazing when they come to me, and share; or perhaps ask my advice and help. God wants that as well. It shows your relationship. It’s very unrealistic to tell someone not to fear, or even to question God. Have you read the bible? There was fear going on. They were human beings. There were questions being asked.  I love the bible because there are many stories that we can actually relate to today. See God showed that part, and then He showed how He answered them, delivered them and they could trust Him. He can and will do the same for us.

Knowing who you are in Christ increases your faith. When you know that He is your Father, you talk to Him as a father, as a dad. You do this throughout the day too. You don’t fall apart every time the enemy comes, Because he does come. You understand who you are and what authority your Heavenly Father has given you.  (Luke 10:19)

You may not see your way out of a situation. That’s OK. We walk by faith and not sight. We trust that God is who HE says HE IS. If we trust that, knowing that He cannot lie. (Numbers 23:19) ALL WILL BE WELL!

1 Peter 1-16 NLTFor the Scriptures say, -You must be holy because I am holy.-

You live right. Holy. Consecrated. You do that out of love and reverence for the Father. Yes we have freedom in Jesus Christ. We absolutely do, but do we misuse that freedom because we have it? God Forbid! (Romans 6: 1-2)

Lets get into the word to see what it says about us and who we are in our Creator, Our Heavenly Father, Our Lord and Savior, Our King and Master. the Author and Finisher of our faith! He who knew us before the foundation of the world. I will include some reference scripture below. You should copy them and read them aloud to yourself. Be confident and walk in boldness!

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Reference Scriptures: Who are we in Christ?

2 Corinthians 5:17 – Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

1 Peter 2:9 – But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.

Galatians 2:20 – I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

John 15:15 – No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you.

John 1:12 – But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.

Romans 8:17 and if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him , that we may be also glorified with him .

Colossians 3:3 – For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.

Galatians 3:26 – For in Christ Jesus you are all sons of God, through faith.

Romans 8:1 – There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 3:20 – But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ.

1 Corinthians 12:27 – Now you are the body of Christ and individually members of it.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 – Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.

Ephesians 2:10 – For we are God’s masterpiece, created to do good works which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Ephesians 4:24 – And to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.

John 3:16 – For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.