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Our mandate is to trust Him

My night consisted of dreams and the Holy Spirit saying to tell the people to trust God, that this is a time to trust God and not lean on our own understanding and to acknowledge God in all of our ways. (Proverbs 3:5,6)

Then I started hearing singing and I recognized it was the ending to a song, over and over about trust. I then woke up and there was a scripture in my notification that said, “But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.” Jeremiah 17:7 NLT

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This was a clear message, and it got my attention. I know how the Lord speaks to me, so upon further prayer and quiet time to listen, the Lord revealed that changes will come suddenly, good and bad. Be alert, and stay prayerful. Huge events will happen in our world. There is a spirit of antichrist in the world preparing for the AntiChrist. There is also a spirit of division that will grow within the church and world. You will see more that was in the dark coming to the light. The Lord is not to be mocked.

Walk by faith and not sight, with what you see going on around you and even within your family. I am doing the same. There are things in my life that looking on the surface could shake my faith, but God has proven Himself to me, so that I can wait on Him and be of good cheer. (John 16:33)

Adjust your thinking and be mindful of what you’re taking in on a regular basis; what you see and hear.

  • Read your Word daily
  • Pray daily
  • Worship daily
  • Fast weekly
  • Seek Godly counsel
  • Endure through your trials
  • Be mindful of the words you speak
  • Practice silence; Talk less and listen more
  • Desire God’s will above yours
  • Be light and salt

It’s the mercy and grace of God that keeps us and nothing we can do to earn righteousness, but there are things we can do do hear Him clearer. We can adjust ourselves to spend quiet time with Him. (1 Kings 19: 11-13) There are things we can do to please Him. (Proverbs 16:7 | Romans 8:8)

If you belong to God, know that your citizenship is in heaven. With that being the case, adjust your thinking to a kingdom citizen. (Philippians 3:20) There is a kingdom of darkness and God’s Kingdom. We can further one or the other. Think about it. Which kingdom are you advancing by your speech and actions?

The days are getting darker, people more violent, and our world is changing rapidly. it’s not all bad, but good and God is not the same.

But if you’re on the right team, you will be good. God has you covered. Trust Him. Don’t jump teams or stay neutral as people do in sports. Choose a side and ride it out.

Remember on Gods team, we win!

In closing, I know you are going through something because who isn’t? We share this human experience yet our trials don’t take away the magnificence and power of God. We see events on the news and horrific stories being shared on social media daily and it causes worry, anxiety, fear, and in many cases, anger. The Lord wants us to hold on to His word, and ingest it daily, as we do natural food. It will strengthen us.

He is the same God; yesterday, today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8)

I love you all

Perspective. What’s yours?

The secret to life…

I was praying about some things and people that God laid on my heart and also those that I know are going through. Once I stopped and sat quietly to just listen, He said, “Perspective.”

He gave me these scriptures:  Matthew 6:25-34, Philippians 1:12-14 and Philippians 4:11-12.

 

I read and studied them as I reflected on my life, circumstances and state of mind.

 

Perspective means a mental view or prospect.

 

-attitude

-mindset

-viewpoint

-way of looking

 

It’s how you view things. And how many know that HOW you VIEW things is EVERYTHING?

Have you heard the saying that life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of HOW you react to it?” Your reactions are tied to your viewpoint of said situations. How do you interpret what is going on? Our attitude and perspective, shapes our beliefs and desires.

 

What if your perspective was that life happens? Things will occur and you have to role with it? Or that woe is me because life happens and you lose all coping mechanisms, when things are tough?

 

I posted a meme before on my Instagram, and I will share it here.fall down stairs meme

It sums up my perspective as it relates to life. Walking with God through my various trials has helped me to grow stronger in this viewpoint. I understand that He is with me, and I will not fall.

 

 

Situations, especially tough ones, show us what we are made of.

 

 

fight or flightHave you ever heard of fight or flight? I had that bad. I would either stand strong and fight or run away. I would leave relationships when they were too hard, or a job. That is a natural response to a perceived harmful event, attack or threat to survival. It could be something mentally or physically, but you may want to run away from it to not deal with it. Or you  may stay and fight through it. Fight or flight is how we deal with stress. Perspective will help in this instance as well

Through my trials I’ve learned endurance. I am actually living out Philippians 4: 11,12. I have learned to be content in all situations. Consequently, I know what it’s like to have plenty and not so much. I don’t put that on the enemy either. I know that the Lord is making, shaping and molding me. I am a willing servant, and have the understanding that in the making process things get chopped off. In the fire it burns sometimes, but we come out pure as gold.

 

 

God provides ALL of my needs.

 

Brief Testimony

 

Over the last 2 years, our finances went from 2 incomes to 1. Needless to say, that is a huge change when it happens right after purchasing your first home, with 2 car notes, insurance, children, and all the daily expenses that come with living. We were used to plenty. We ate out regularly, socialized and attended movies and what not. We did allot that required money. I paid for whatever my children wanted to do, because I worked a lot and although I was gone to work, they had the funds to do what they needed. (Later I came to understand that they needed me, more than the money)

What am I saying? I am saying that I had a choice. God said to leave my salon while I was going through cancer. He said that He had something better for me and that He wanted me to merge into who I was. That it was time for me to be in ministry. This is part of my ministry–teaching through writing and speaking on my weekly broadcast. I could have chosen to obey or disobey, as my free will permitted.

What I found was that Jesus was no longer my first love, but making money, keeping up my lifestyle, and being able to buy what I wanted was. I didn’t know it at the time, until He allowed me to be sat down. My perspective had to change, and it has.Glory to God! God has been taking care of me, and my family. What do your actions say about your perspective? Think about it. What situation do you find yourself in currently? How do you view it?

 

 

 

Renewed Mind

 

Now, I understand that everyone does not have that perspective, but I am encouraging you to adapt it. I am pleading with you to believe the report of the Lord who promises to never leave nor forsake you. He says that we are more than conquerors through Jesus Christ and no weapon that is formed against us shall prosper. Do you believe that? Not understand it in theory, but BELIEVE it?  Do you have confidence it it’s truth even without the absolute proof of seeing it. That’s faith. True faith. You don’t know cause you don’t SEE it, but you TRUST and absolutely BELIEVE because God says so. You believe HE is so and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. Faith is the substance of things hoped for yet not seen. This will keep you. Faith will keep you in a peaceful place. A place where you wait on the Lord and be of good courage. Knowing that others are suffering afflictions as well will keep you. Sharing testimonies and fellowshipping with your brothers and sisters will keep you.

Our present suffering does not compare to the joy that awaits us. Let’s keep the main thing (Jesus) the main thing. The enemy wants us in bondage. He wants us in the bondage of fear. Fear of losing what we have, fear of death, fear of perception, so much fear. He wants us to walk by sight and not faith. He wants us to be all in our emotions and our flesh. It takes intentionality and a changed mindset to walk out our faith in a courageous way. It take a renewed mind to disconnect from what the masses are doing. You can live and enjoy your life, but understand that God and His kingdom must be your portion. It must be your focus. God promises to work everything else out for you if you seek His Kingdom and it’s righteousness because one things for sure, He knows what you stand in need of. (Matthew 6:33,34)

 

 

Endurance of Trials

 

IMG_0467Cancer taught me that my total dependency is on God. I couldn’t save my life, nor could money. Only God can do that. There are millionaires that die from cancer even after trying all types of treatments. My vehicles, home, and whatever else couldn’t save me. Understand that our jobs can’t save us. Most of us are a paycheck away from homelessness. Do you know that? What if the banks closed and you didn’t have access to your money? What if there was a blackout? Do you see what I’m saying? Or a natural disaster where you must evacuate. WHO do you depend on? Don’t wait until disaster to call on God for help. You need to have Him now! And have Him in the proper prospective. Choose to follow Him today!

Losing my mom suddenly was super tough for me to go through. I learned that I could do nothing to change that; however, the Lord let His Spirit fall upon me and gave me peace. My dad was dying from cancer as we both were battling and all of that hurt like you cannot believe and still hurts today because I miss them so much. I then lost my beautiful young cousin suddenly from Lupus complications. They are all resting and I am still here going through. Death of loved ones hurt, yet I still choose to adopt the viewpoint of: Things change–It will be ok. I never thought it would be ok suffering that type of pain, but time heals. It makes things more bearable. Focusing on the Lord, living for Him, helping others and getting out of my own head, makes it better. Understanding that my life woes are not everything. Sometimes we need to get out of our box, and look around. There are many that have less, and are happier. Why? Perspective.

The End of the Matter

In conclusion, My perspective changed through the loss of both my parents, battling stage 3 breast cancer and a huge change in my financial status. I can’t add one cubit to my life! Not even one. God is my source for everything. The constant has always been God. He does not and has not changed in any way. I’ve grown to love Him so much more. I know Him and He knows me. God knows my name, and it is written in the Lambs book of life. I understand that He chose me for such a time as this, and regardless of any situation I look to the Hills where my help comes from.

Sadly, this world is in labor pains, and as a people we are all experiencing some form of trial and tribulation in our life, whether we are directly or indirectly connected to it. We are in the end times, and the birth pains are progressive. Things will not get better until Jesus comes. Man CANNOT save us or make life better, no matter what they say. Peace and security is an illusion and delusion, and once it’s said (and it will be said) (1 Thessalonians 5:3) then sudden destruction will come upon the Earth as we have never seen. That is a prophecy. Trust in God!  Jesus is the way, truth and life. (John 14:6) I am excited for His return, yet sad for all that is occurring in the world. But these things must take place.

Finally, I encourage you to ponder this question: What’s your perspective on life?

The secret to life is Perspective. 

 

Elevate in your walk

Go Higher

 

 

Don’t let your circumstances dictate when you praise. You have it all wrong if you’re only praising God when things are going well. Praise should continuously be on your mouth. (Psalm 34:1)
Part of elevating in our walk with God requires us looking at Him as a present help in times of trouble. (Psalm 46:1) Even if we aren’t seeing the results we want. Knowing that He is well able is enough to make you shout,

“Praise God!”

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But how can you attain it? By resting in Him. You are resting in Him when you are fully trusting Him. Fully meaning no worries. Yes it’s possible. I write about it in my new devotional book, Going Higher.

You can get to a place of true surrender. Now I will warn you, once you get there you don’t look at anything the same. You are truly aware that you are in the world but not apart of it. Your emotions aren’t all over the place and you don’t fall out over everything. You are human, so yes you will still experience pain and sadness, etc; however, you absolutely will refuse to remain there. You will exercise your right to choose and you will choose love. You’ll choose to smile, and to forgive… it’s a beautiful thing, really.

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It’s getting increasingly evident to all that something is going on in the world. Both Christians and non-Christians can sense a change. If you are a bible reader then you know that we are in the last days. You know that our Lord Jesus is soon to return. We don’t know the date or hour but we can discern the times and seasons as it says in Matthew 24. Who knows how long? I certainly don’t, but what I do know is that it’s time out for playing.

Get yourself together. Get right by God. Seek Him while He still may be found. God has mercy and grace for us all. Developing a relationship or enhancing what you already have is necessary. The time is now. Not tomorrow. Elevate! The enemy is increasing his havoc out here in the world. We must be aware because he is going around like a roaring lion seeking whom to devour. (1 Peter 5:8)

There’s good news! We have Jesus! We have the Holy Spirit. He said that He who was in us is greater than he who is in the world. And if you don’t have Him you can go to Him in all sincerity. You must approach Him in humility. Then, you pray and ask him to forgive you. Let Him know that you believe that He came in the flesh and died for you. Tell Him that you believe that he rose on the 3rd day and is currently seated at the right hand of the Father. Ask him to come into your life.

That’s what I did in 2010. I had an amazing experience right in my bedroom as I cried to Jesus. I was afraid to pray to Him because of all the erroneous teaching I’d had all of my life. But God is wonderful! I am thankful!

I was an inactive Jehovah’s Witness at the time and had an amazing encounter with Jesus. He was calling me, and I answered. I didn’t get baptized until 2013 in Jesus name and that same year He filled me with the Holy Ghost. A Holy Ghost I didn’t even believe in as a JW!

The Lord is rea! My life is my proof. My walk since 2010 shows me His power. But even before that, if I’m being real, he was watching over me. He has known me and chosen me before the foundation of the world. Glory!

I encourage you to go to Him. True peace will never be found in anything or anyone except Jesus. You can weather any storm that you may encounter with him by your side.

I love you with the love of Christ and I wish you many blessings.

The enemy invaded my thoughts

I have a word to share about the enemy that comes each time God is elevating you. He whispers words to you that go against what you know to be true and also what you know God said.

Today, I spoke at a service and I’ve never been to a “Testimony Service” so it was interesting. I’ve been in service where people have testified but this entire service was focused on testimonies and praise and worship, which was awesome. My background is Jehovahs Witness so I’m still not that familiar with church protocol. I’m still learning.

I went first. I have such a vast testimony that I had to condense it as much as I could. I think I did ok, but I was questioning it too, because I was saying so many different things. At least it seemed that way to me.

Instantly the enemy said, “You can’t do this. You’re no speaker. You will fail” I will be honest, I listened at first and said to myself, “I didn’t do well. I was all over the place. I should have said it this way…”

Then, I rebuked the spirit of doubt and refused to listen. It had to go! It could no longer take residence in my mind. It wanted me to believe that I can’t go to this next level that God is taking me and I actually entertained it! I became scared that I couldn’t do it. It’s new. It’s uncomfortable. 

HoweverI said, “I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.” 🙏 And I said, ” I cast down every thought that raises itself again the knowledge of God and call it unto submission.” It’s not a direct quote but they knew what was up. I just started speaking the word.

Furthermore, I heard in my spirit, “I am with you” I heard it 3 times. I started to raise my hands and praise Him.

See, I have to stay in a place of looking at Jesus so that I don’t sink like Peter. God showed me that I will see a lot more and as He continues to pull me to the front to share my testimony that I will be warring in the Spirit.

I thank God for today. I thank Him for allowing me to see and hear. It’s not easy but I’m fighting the good fight of faith!

I told my cousin what happened and she said, “Not you! You’re always so positive” and I told her that I am not immune to the enemy coming to me. He may get a hit in  but he not knocking me down! No one is immune! Please believe it. But we must rebuke and bind the enemy. Cast those thoughts down. Recognize the strongholds the enemy tries to set up. That’s what he was doing with me–attempting to set up a stronghold in my mind.  I thank God that I was aware. Rebuke the devil and he will flee. And most of all TRUST GOD AND THE PLAN THAT HE HAS FOR OUR LIVES. 

Three ladies came to me directly letting me know my testimony helped them. Glory! Because even if one person was encouraged I feel great about that.

The enemy wants to silence my testimony but he can’t. The Lord has been too good to me! God has gone before me and set my path straight. The Lord will continue to develop me and all I say is, “Yes God to your will and to your way”

In conclusion, it was a blessing. Jesus was magnified! I was blessed by the testimonies that I heard. And I appreciated being included.

The word says at Revelation 12:11

“And they have conquered him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, for they loved not their lives even unto death.”

Be Blessed! ❤️

“You want me to do what, God?”

How many of you have received a word from the Lord that gave you pause? That made you say, “You want me to do what, God?”

I have.

I have received a few of those words, that I didn’t quite understand, yet most times, I obeyed. The times that I didn’t obey, I paid the price. We do suffer many things, not from the enemy or the Lord, but by our own decisions. You do know that, right? Some things are just us. We need to get out of our own way.

The Lord says that obedience is better than sacrifice. (1 Samuel  15:22)

Also, understand these 3 things. (I cited these 3 from jolly notes.com, but agree with them 100%)

#1 God is still God – God is still on the throne
Psalm 46:10, ESV Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!

#2 God Knows. God Understands.
It may not make sense to us, but it makes sense to God. There are some things that we just don’t have the capacity to fully understand right now. God may have allowed something to happen, but it doesn’t mean it makes God happy.
Isaiah 55:8-9, ESV For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

#3 God loves you very deeply – His love for us is profound, incomprehensible, unfathomable and everlasting
Jeremiah 31:3, NIV …I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.


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Knowing these things, and also referencing the many times that He has shown up in my life, leading and directing me, making things work out for my good, I know that I can trust Him.

Trust and faith is necessary to be obedient to God. You must believe that He will do what He says He will, even if it doesn’t look like it. You must trust His word.

Are there scenarios in the bible that I can reference? Sure, lets take a look at a few of my favorites from the Old and New Testaments:

  • God told Noah that He would cause it to rain and flood the earth for 40 days and 40 nights and to build an ark. Noah hadn’t experienced those weather conditions on earth before. He built it. He was ridiculed, yet he was obedient. He and his family were saved. He did everything God told him to do. Regardless of what he actually saw. He trusted God.
  • What about Moses? He was told to lead the people out of Egypt. Moses was not well spoken and did not think himself qualified. He said as much to God. God allowed his brother Aaron to assist but he still used Moses. Moses was successful in leading the children of Israel from Egypt. God did many signs and wonders thru Moses,
  • Abraham was told to sacrifice his son. His only son. The son of promise. He was obedient. He walked 3 days with his son to the mountain. His son asked where the sacrifice was and He told him that God would provide. He had so much trust in God. That was trust from a hard place. Can you imagine? All of the families on earth have been blessed because of Abraham, the father of faith.
  • Gideon was hiding in the cave when he saw an angel. The angel called him brave. He said for him to go boldly and save his people, the Israelites, from the hands of the Midianites. He said that the Lord was with him. He obeyed. He was victorious, and of all the fifteen men who ruled as Judges of Israel, Gideon, the fifth Judge, was the greatest, in courage, in wisdom, and in faith in God.
  • Joseph was told that his wife would be pregnant by the Holy Spirit. He was told that he had to stay with her. You know Joseph had a hard time with that one. He was obedient and Emmanuel – God with us, Jesus, was born into the world. Hallelujah!
  • Peter when asked to meet Jesus on the water is another example. I can just imagine his face LOL. “You want me to come out there?” “How?” (paraphrasing and emphasis mine) He was obedient and he walked on the water just like Jesus!
  • Ananias was asked by God to go to Saul aka Paul. Ananias had heard of Saul and he was hesitant. Sauls reputation as a murderer of those in The Way, or the Christians was well known. God told him that Saul was chosen by Him. He blinded Saul and wanted Ananias to go lay hands on him that he may regain his sight and also so he can be filled with the Holy Spirit. He was obedient.

There are many more throughout the bible. I want to show a history of how God deals with us. Obedience is absolutely necessary. Do not make mistakes about it.


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God told me to leave my salon. A salon that He gave me. He said that He was shifting me-closing that door and opening another. I did not understand at first. I understand now. My clients, some family and friends, didn’t understand, and probably still don’t. My answer to them is that I’m being obedient. He didn’t give them the vision, He gave it to me. So I can’t expect them to understand. That is the best way I can say it, because that’s the truth. There is a scripture in John where Jesus says to his disciples that you may not understand now but later you will. Isn’t it like that? We don’t always get it at first. Sometimes we do, other times we are left asking, “What’s going on?” Let us never lose sight that Gods ways are not our ways, nor His thoughts our thoughts. Although we must have the mind of Christ, our Father in Heaven is still way higher than anything we can imagine. We are limited but we serve a LIMITLESS God!

It is imperative to walk in faith. If we walk by sight we won’t move. We will be fearful because of what we see. Or what others may say. We would be fearful because our mind will tell us that we can’t make it. Or that it’s too uncomfortable. I thought I would be a hairstylist and then teach hair for the rest of my life.  I was ok with that. I love doing hair. God had a plan all along. The more I walk with Him, the more I gain understanding. Even allowing this cancer to hit my body. He allowed me to suffer. But I am thankful for this suffering. It has opened my eyes and brought me to a level that I never was prior to this. He never left me, but told me it’s a process I must go through and it will be for His Glory! I am still going through, but all is well. I am clay. I am on the Potter’s wheel.

I used to write when I was younger, and my mom was a writer, but she didn’t do anything with it. God told me the same gifts He gave her, He gave to me but greater and I will do something with mine, for HIS GLORY! Glory to God!!  As Believers, we know that God knows the plans that He has for us. He knows. Even if we don’t. Our position should just be, “Yes God!”, ” Yes to your will and yes to your way.” Now, in saying, “Yes”, we don’t know which way things are going to go. It’s a faith walk, regardless of what is happening. He says if we put Him first all other things will be added. I’m putting Him first and believing Him on His word. Whatever is in store for me will be good. No doubt about that. It has already started to manifest. I see it in the Spirit. I see so much in the Spirit now. I’m less attached to the world, more attached to Him. The visions I have received concerning my life are scary, because they are big. I have written down what I want (making it plain.) I know that they can only take place with God spearheading, going ahead of me and making my path straight. It takes me being obedient to His will and living my life the way He requires. There is no compromise with God.

The Anointing cost! 

Have you received a word that you don’t quite understand? Is there a decision for you to make? Don’t trust in anything or anyone more than God.

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We like to stay where it’s comfortable. But all progress takes place outside the comfort zone. You may have a dream or some desires that have not been fulfilled yet. Seek God. Trust Him. Walk in His ways. He is the one that gives us success. He is the one that causes us to be promoted. (Deuteronomy 8:18) His answers are yes, no and wait. His way is always better. Better than anything I could imagine. Our scope is so limited. We limited by what we see around us. He is a God that does not grow weary. He is an everlasting God. He sees the end from the beginning. There is comfort in that. There is comfort in knowing that the Creator of Heaven and Earth loves us so much. That He knows the number of hairs on our heads. He knows what we need. He says that He knows how to give good gifts to us. He can’t lie.

Trust Him.

 

Silent Tears…

silent tears

Today I woke with tears in my eyes. Silent tears–There was no sound. No cry escaped my lips, yet the tears flowed freely. I miss my mom, more than anyone could possibly know. Internal pain and hurt. Sometimes pain can be so great that a sound won’t come through. It can be so great that you are in the room but not present. You have a smile that doesn’t reach your eyes. You search for an escape. Somewhere to run from “Are you ok?” and “What’s wrong?” You hear it, you want to answer, but knowing as soon as you start, your chest will heave and your shoulders will go slack and it will be over. All the silence is now so loud, it’s yelling at you like a bullhorn. The tears so loud, and fierce that you can’t catch your breath.

Your eyes look around quickly searching for an escape. You just want to be alone. Just a little time alone.  You feel no one understands. Who in your home understands?  They love you and want to comfort you. You appreciate the thoughtfulness of it all, but unable to receive at the moment. You must leave the room. The air is getting so thick. You can’t breathe in there. You need air.

“Help me Lord!” you say in your mind. You don’t trust yourself to speak. “I need your strength right now Jesus.” , “Your peace that surpasses all thought…”

You get up and walk out the room. The Lord leads you to a quiet place. No one follows you. They all stare as you walk out the room. You feel their eyes burning into your back. They love you. You understand. But you want them to understand that you need time. “This too shall pass. Just a moment,” you say to yourself. “Just give me a moment alone. ”

You are now in His presence. You sigh. A huge sigh of relief and release. You cry. You then notice the tears drying up. You feel the warmth of His hug. You smile. You actually smile! In the midst of! Glory to God! You know that He is with you. His peace starts to overflow. “There’s healing in your tears.” He says. “You are not alone, I am with you always.” You are over joyed! You know this already, but you understand we all need reminding. We need to hear, “I love you” It can be understood, and doesn’t have to be explained, but you still bask in the sound of those words.  His Spirit comforts you, and you start to feel normal again. You can actually have a conversation now without falling apart. You can go about your day.

Slowly your family comes to you–To your quiet place to check on you.  First, your youngest daughter. She says, “You thinking about grandma?” You nod. “It will be ok, mom.” and leans over, hugs you and kisses the top of your head. She retreats. After a few moments your husband comes out. He asks how you are doing. You are ok and have a brief conversation with him. Your husband leans over and gives you 3 kisses and a hug. He lingers there. You smile, and cherish that moment. Your spirits are connecting in that moment. It’s beautiful.


This was a brief synopsis of my morning.


Jesus is real. I know it, and I want others to know it. Even when I’m going through. Even with a loss of my mom, going through my breast cancer journey, and my dad currently in a cancer fight for his life. He’s real. Every now and then I will find tears in my eyes, with no words. God catches all my tears.


I write. I’ve kept journals since I was 14. Writing is such a major release for me. It’s therapeutic.  I aim to teach through my life experiences. I have much to share. The Lord has put this on my heart. Pressed it actually. I’ve had silent tears today about my mom, but I’ve had them in the past about my life. I’ve had them through molestation and rape. I’ve had them through divorce and starting my life over. Feeling like a failure. I’ve had them through pushing through when I just wanted to fall apart. Do you have silent tears? Do you have internal pain that you feel no one can understand? It’s not easy to share, is it? But sharing is therapeutic. Your testimony can and will help someone. We all share this human experience. There is nothing that you have gone through that someone else hasn’t. Nothing is new under the sun. I also understand that everyone can’t share. And that is ok. I am leaving the comfort of silence to speak. In my speaking, I want to show you Jesus. In my life, I want to show you Jesus. Look at me. You can see what He can do. The transformation power of His Glory! Hallelujah!

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The Gift of Jesus!

You have so much joy because He gives you joy. Joy is not found in your circumstances. You look to Him. Circumstances change. Happiness is predicated on circumstances. You can be happy one second and sad the next. Joy is found in Jesus. Peace is based on what’s going on at that moment. But with Jesus, He gives you peace despite the conditions you find yourself in. Trust me. I know. I have so much experience with Him, and there is more to come. As long as I keep living.


John 14:27 “I am leaving you with a gift–peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.

 

 

XoXo

Tara