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The Authenticity of the Writer

Why I write

I enjoy writing immensely. If I could just write and that was all, there would be no issue. Regrettably, that is not the case. Being obedient to the call that the Lord has placed on me is exciting and uncomfortable at the same time. Granted, I have been speaking my mind, and posting scriptures for years on my personal platform. However, using a professional platform to showcase my writing leaves me vulnerable and open in a way that I didn’t feel before. Even so, this is what has been asked of me.

I know that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. This is not in question. At the same time, I am being pulled to the front for all to see. As a result, I feel butterflies in my stomach after I publish my posts. I wonder if it will be received and if people will actually get it? “Am I qualified to write books as the Lord says that I will do?” These thoughts and more cross my mind. In any case, I believe the word when it says that God does not call the qualified, but qualifies the called. I can’t boast in myself, but in God! (1 Corinthians 1: 27-31)

The power of my Testimony                        

My testimony is powerful and will help many. I believe that with all that is in me. Be that as it may, it will also get me some side eye from the church folk. Yet I must fearlessly forge ahead! In addition, God blesses and adds no sorrow, so it will definitely work out. That is not the issue. He told me that I would have to be bold and courageous for this next season. Strangely enough, I happen to be both bold and courageous LOL. Truly. If you are a follower of my blog or even my personal social media, you can attest to that.

Authenticity is important in the christian walk. I remember being one way at home and another in public. Do you know how taxing that is? I’m sure some of you do. Some of you are that way. I am thankful to be continually pressing forward in the freedom that truth has given me. In fact, being truthful and leaning on God is how I live my life now. Of course that wasn’t always the case, yet I’m thankful to say I’ve progressed in the Lord during my Cancer journey more than I ever have prior to. (Psalm 107:1-2) (image source: Google.com)

My Progression

As a matter of fact, tragedy opened my eyes and ears to see and hear Him. Furthermore, I am home and not running the streets or in the salon from sun up to sundown. Instead, I am with my family. The growth that has been attained in my household is enough for me to shout, “Hallelujah!” Of course nothing is perfect, but let me tell you! The way my husband and I communicate with each other now versus a year ago is amazing progress. We are applying the word to our marriage, and as a result we are seeing the fruits. (Matthew 19:4-6) What gets me the most irritated in my home is not my husband but my children LOL. Discipline and consistency is what I am working on with them. (image source: Pinterest)

Who I’m writing to

I speak and write on these things to be encouraging to the body of Christ, but especially to married women. Consequently, I mostly relate to married women, as I have been married and divorced and married again. I write to the married christian woman who is not where she wants to be in God.

I also relate to women in general who are fighting the good fight of faith! (1 Timothy 6:12)

These women have a past that they need to forgive themselves for. As a matter of fact, they may have a “present” that needs forgiven. A “present,” that is rocky and bound with strongholds. I’ve been there too.

Jesus has already forgiven us, but we need to forgive ourselves and go forth with what He has called us to do. (2Corinthians 5:17) (Ephesians 1:7)

Transitioning

God is calling us higher as a body, and I recognize that. He is moving in a beautiful and miraculous way. The sermons the last few weeks at my church had many confirmations for me. In fact, this past Sunday spoke volumes to my spirit. It was the Spirit of God speaking through Pastor.

The Lord has revealed Himself to me in ways that have blown my mind. For this reason alone, my life will never be the same. He has changed the entire course of my life.

For example, I am a full time homemaker and writer. Who would have thought that would be my life? Not this lady. I just wanted to be in the salon, and write at my leisure as I’ve been doing for years. And not to knock housewives, because my mom was one, but that was not my plan. (Proverbs 16:1)

Still, it has been a great experience thus far. At home and the writing aspect. Of course with the writing, I have to keep learning the professional way to do things to pen a book. In fact, my writing keeps improving every time I sit down and type. Thank you Jesus! I am smiling as I write this because I know what He said to me. The vision is big and I only know in part, yet without the Lord it will not happen. (Proverbs 16:1) (Psalm 127:1)

At this point it’s all about obedience. It’s not about how I feel. All things considered, if you leave it up to me, I would still be in the salon and writing my little tidbits here and there on my facebook page. 

But God!

In conclusion

Finally you guys, I want to thank you. I know some look at me as if I’m crazy walking away from my salon to sit home and write. You know how I know that? Because I see some doing it when I tell them that I am not returning to the salon. They ask how can I leave something that was certain, for uncertainty? I try to explain this faith walk that I am on; however, everyone can’t receive it.

If you happen to know me, and you’re wondering what is going on, I will tell you like this: I am living my life in a way that I never have before. Freely! I am loving myself in a way that I wasn’t capable of before. Truly! In fact, my husband is loving me in a way that I didn’t know was possible. I would tell you that God has been working on me and through me, and I am letting Him. He’s stripped me bare and turned me to the mirror to face myself. Furthermore, I trust God. I am on that staircase walking up when I can’t see the next step. (Hebrews 11:1)

 

 

 

The enemy invaded my thoughts

I have a word to share about the enemy that comes each time God is elevating you. He whispers words to you that go against what you know to be true and also what you know God said.

Today, I spoke at a service and I’ve never been to a “Testimony Service” so it was interesting. I’ve been in service where people have testified but this entire service was focused on testimonies and praise and worship, which was awesome. My background is Jehovahs Witness so I’m still not that familiar with church protocol. I’m still learning.

I went first. I have such a vast testimony that I had to condense it as much as I could. I think I did ok, but I was questioning it too, because I was saying so many different things. At least it seemed that way to me.

Instantly the enemy said, “You can’t do this. You’re no speaker. You will fail” I will be honest, I listened at first and said to myself, “I didn’t do well. I was all over the place. I should have said it this way…”

Then, I rebuked the spirit of doubt and refused to listen. It had to go! It could no longer take residence in my mind. It wanted me to believe that I can’t go to this next level that God is taking me and I actually entertained it! I became scared that I couldn’t do it. It’s new. It’s uncomfortable. 

HoweverI said, “I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.” 🙏 And I said, ” I cast down every thought that raises itself again the knowledge of God and call it unto submission.” It’s not a direct quote but they knew what was up. I just started speaking the word.

Furthermore, I heard in my spirit, “I am with you” I heard it 3 times. I started to raise my hands and praise Him.

See, I have to stay in a place of looking at Jesus so that I don’t sink like Peter. God showed me that I will see a lot more and as He continues to pull me to the front to share my testimony that I will be warring in the Spirit.

I thank God for today. I thank Him for allowing me to see and hear. It’s not easy but I’m fighting the good fight of faith!

I told my cousin what happened and she said, “Not you! You’re always so positive” and I told her that I am not immune to the enemy coming to me. He may get a hit in  but he not knocking me down! No one is immune! Please believe it. But we must rebuke and bind the enemy. Cast those thoughts down. Recognize the strongholds the enemy tries to set up. That’s what he was doing with me–attempting to set up a stronghold in my mind.  I thank God that I was aware. Rebuke the devil and he will flee. And most of all TRUST GOD AND THE PLAN THAT HE HAS FOR OUR LIVES. 

Three ladies came to me directly letting me know my testimony helped them. Glory! Because even if one person was encouraged I feel great about that.

The enemy wants to silence my testimony but he can’t. The Lord has been too good to me! God has gone before me and set my path straight. The Lord will continue to develop me and all I say is, “Yes God to your will and to your way”

In conclusion, it was a blessing. Jesus was magnified! I was blessed by the testimonies that I heard. And I appreciated being included.

The word says at Revelation 12:11

“And they have conquered him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, for they loved not their lives even unto death.”

Be Blessed! ❤️

Where we are weak…

God is strong. 

The Lord says that where we are weak, He is strong.

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“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭NLT‬‬
 “So be strong and courageous, all you who put your hope in the Lord!”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭31:24‬ ‭NLT‬‬

When do you actually find out how strong you are? When do you find out what you’re made of? How much can you endure? 

It’s through trials and tribulations that we all face in the world. 

I was sitting outside this morning enjoying my coffee and reflecting on this season of my life. 

I was reflecting on the loss of my mom last year, suddenly from a heart attack.

I didn’t understand. That was such a hard time for me. Do you think it’s easier to lose someone suddenly or watch them slowly slip away? 

Think about it…

I think about it and I wish I had more time with my mom. I would not want to see her “wasting away” but I definitely wish she was still here. We are selfish too, you know. 

We want what we want. We want who we want. Sometimes our loved ones want to go. Sometimes they are tired.

In the case of my mom, I felt, in retrospect, that she knew that she was leaving us. She said her goodbyes. How do people know?? I don’t know. But she did. 

The last time I saw her felt like a “goodbye”, she told me how proud she was of me and how much she loved me and that she knew I would continue to do well in life. She looked me in the eyes and was extra “loving”  My mother was not like that. She didn’t say, “I love you” often at all. And that was ok. It was normal. But there was more said and I left there feeling amazing at how she spoke to me. I felt like a little girl hearing from your mom how proud she was of you. I joked with her how she was laying it on thick LOL and I would be there to pick her and dad up Monday because they hadn’t been to my new salon since it was finished. They saw it a few times while it was being worked up and everything .

We made a date. 

That day never came. She passed away 4 days later from that conversation.

That same year in September, towards the end of the month, I felt a lump in my right breast. I was alarmed. I was in the shower and something made me check. It wasn’t a regular routine for me. Let me tell you though. As soon as I felt it, I instantly knew it wasn’t right. It wasn’t just fibrous tissues. I hoped, but something inside of me said otherwise. 

I called my Gynecologist. I saw her in October. She wanted further examination. She wrote me a referral for a mammogram. It would be my very first. 

I made that call after my 40th birthday party. I didn’t want to deal with it. I went for my mammogram. It came back abnormal. Then there were more tests. Ultrasounds and biopsies. 

All of which were abnormal. Hmmmm is this really happening?? That is what I wondered. 

After it was all said and done, I was diagnosed with Breast cancer. Initially they thought stage 2b before surgery. After they opened me up they discovered so much more disease and I was officially stage 3b. What? How? Why? 


The doctors said coming in October versus November would not have made a difference. From the size and spread of the tumor, it was inside of me for awhile. So during this time, my mother in law was hospitalized and my father. They both had major surgery. I didn’t want to tell them what was going on with me. 

Christmas Day was spent going to the hospital visiting them both. All the while knowing I had cancer, but didn’t want to tell them. 

I kept it under wraps and told my spiritual mom, spiritual sisters and natural sister. I slowly started to let it be known. I needed prayer. I needed strength.

My dad was also diagnosed with liver cancer. He currently is fighting that cancer which is stage 4 and spread to his bones. God help us. 

I say that you never know how strong you are until you go through. 

My life has been turned upside down. Yet still I stand! 

I am thankful to God for His mercy and peace. He has given me peace in the midst of this storm. 

“Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.”

‭‭Job‬ ‭13:15‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Trials and tribulations do not have to be the end.

We will face trials in this world. No one is immune to them. Jesus was heavily persecuted and said that we would be as well. My trial may not be yours; however, it doesn’t diminish yours. 

We all share this human experience, meaning we experience similar issues. Issues that cut through race barriers. Issues that cut through religion and sexuality barriers. We are human. We are in a world where food that is meant to give us nutrition is killing us. That’s another story altogether smh.

I want to encourage you today that God never intended for us to live this way. He doesn’t want us suffering like we are. He loves us. He desires us all to be saved. He desires us all to come to an accurate knowledge of who He is. 

Death is not the end. Not if you’re saved. Jesus has Resurrection power! Hallelujah!


John 5:28-29, NKJV. “Do not marvel at this; for the hour is coming in which all who are in the graves will hear His voice and come forth – those who have done good, to the resurrection of life, and those who have done evil, to the resurrection of condemnation.”

I encourage you to live your life and enjoy it daily. I encourage you to get to know God. I encourage you to do things you love and be around people you love. I encourage you to be selfish with yourself sometimes. Understand how important time is and how you can’t get it back. Don’t allow people to waste it. Spend time with who you want. Be genuine in your dealings with people. Trust that God will set your path straight. Cast your cares on Him. Don’t live your life frustrated . Remember that we all have choices. We just have to deal with our choices, whatever that may be. 

Remember to be kind. In a cruel world that is rare, but people are kind. They’re out here.

 You want love? Show love

You want a friend? Be a friend. 

Let it start with the man or woman in the mirror. Many times we must encourage ourselves. But let’s also encourage others. 

Life is definitely what we make it. It’s about how we react to the situations we deal with daily. What is our thought process like? You know thoughts turn into actions, actions into habits, habits into character… 

I always say the battle is in our minds. Stay strong in your mind. Stay positive. Faith helps with this. Trying to go at it alone without God seems daunting to me. We all need hope. Without hope what’s the point of it all? 


What do you believe in? Trust in? It must be greater than yourself? Right?

 Take the limits off God! We’re limited. He is not. 

Regardless of what life throws at me, I know the Lord will never leave nor forsake me. I believe that! That’s real to me. My hope lies with Him. 

I love you for taking the time to read my blog. I truly love writing and expressing myself this way. This is healing to my mind and spirit.

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Who taught you to quit?

Man oh man, I am so inspired right now, and also so full of praise from the message that I just heard

 Hallelujah and Glory to God!

 

I was watching a live stream of TD Jake’s at Second Ebenezer church for their Pastors’ 40th anniversary.

In his closing remarks he spoke on how people with dreams settle for less and quit. ..should’ve been and could’ve been this or that. But God says because we are His, He will heal us from that! He was speaking of backsliding. Not in the sense of you used to go to church, but in a sense from quitting, giving up and stopping in our journey. Our dreams and gifts, etc can just slide right off if we are not careful.

He said it must be a disease, backsliding, because God said He will heal us from it!

I will heal their backsliding, I will love them freely: for mine anger is turned away from him. Hosea 14:4

Return, ye backsliding children, and I will heal your backslidings. Behold, we come unto thee; for thou art the LORD our God. Jeremiah 3:22

 

glory to god

 

I am thankful because my sister and I was just talking about this the other day. Listening to this brought our talk to my mind.

We talked about how talented and educated our mom was and how she didn’t do anything with it. She was a career student, in my opinion, an avid learner and a prolific writer. She knew so much and I enjoyed listening to her and asking her questions.

I hope to write like her someday. Gifted. Natural ability. I have the desire, the love and ability. My skill level isn’t on hers yet, but it will. God is not done with me. He just getting started!  My daughters write as well, and my niece. This talent exists in my family. In addition to other things.

She has so many writings and she didn’t do anything with them. She could have been published many times over with best sellers.  There was this one time she sold her poem and it was used as a country song. It was called, “Blue Moon”…So there was that; however, the deal wasn’t that great. She received a check, but she should have received more. Royalties and what not. We didn’t know. She didn’t know. But she was content with what she received.

I am not saying being content is bad. The Lord does say we should learn to be content in season and out of season. I am not speaking of that. I am speaking of letting dreams die. Letting gifts and abilities and callings die. Not going after what was put in you. Not seeing it through. Not believing in yourself. She wanted more, but didn’t know how to get it. She wanted more, but didn’t have anyone encouraging her and pushing her. We need that as well. Some will talk down on your ideas because they don’t have any. They can’t see themselves successful so they certainly can’t see you there. They don’t want  to see you there.

My mom has countless amounts of poems. Deep stuff too. She didn’t see her parents succeeding or being ambitious. Her circle wasn’t either. All of this must be factored in to the outcome.

We spoke of how our lives could have been different. From generation to generation they had not established anything to carry on to their children, (us). My mom is now deceased. I am thinking of putting her poetry out in honor of her. I did speak with her about these things before she passed. She spoke of writing a book and getting serious about all of this when she died suddenly of a heart attack June 24, 2016.

I do have a goal of doing that for her. I hope not to become complacent and let it slide off and nothing happens. Help me Lord!

I am trying to change that now for my children and future grandchildren and so on. Legacy!

Give me a strategy Lord!

I have cousins who are also working towards building legacy. We can’t teach them to quit! We can’t teach them to settle and be comfortable! We’ve watched the previous generation do just that. What have they carried on to us? What will we carry on?

What have you accomplished in your life? What has your family accomplished? Is there something to aspire too? Like is everyone a graduate of college? Everyone a Cop or Teacher? You understand what I mean? Everyone work in the ministry? Is there a family legacy? A family business? Something? or is it every man for himself? No money to leave to the next generation. No business to pass on. No education goals. This needs to change.

When you are in an environment where people are settling and not pushing to do more or have little ambition, that can affect you in a negative way. Some go against the grain and push back. Sadly, many go with it and do the same. They become what they see.

A product of their environment.

Which am I? Both I think. At different times.

I have pushed myself, and other times I have settled comfortably. Nothing much happens in the comfortable part. Same ole, same ole. I am more mindful of the company I keep.

I don’t want comfortable.

There’s no progress.

comfort zone

 

 

God wants so much for us. He has plans for our lives, but that does require us doing something as well.

“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9

Stay in it! Go for it! Believe it!

Do you have a dream or vision? Go for it! Takes steps towards it and watch what God does.

I am speaking to myself too. Sometimes my dreams scare me, because I am like, “how Lord?” I know what I want, but I know that it can only be achieved with You. They are too big. There is a saying that it’s not big enough if it doesn’t scare you.

I am excited and scared LOL to be open and honest. I can’t see what’s next, but I will never get there if I don’t take steps and MOVE. I have to make a move. I have already started making moves while I am down fighting cancer because of a word the Lord spoke to me. I received it, and then I started asking “how?” LOL

What a question to ask the Creator of the Universe. I had to laugh myself.

I may not know ‘how’, but I know WHO.

That is all I need.

I just wanted to jump on and write this. Hope it encouraged you.

Have a good night.

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