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The Authenticity of the Writer

Why I write

I enjoy writing immensely. If I could just write and that was all, there would be no issue. Regrettably, that is not the case. Being obedient to the call that the Lord has placed on me is exciting and uncomfortable at the same time. Granted, I have been speaking my mind, and posting scriptures for years on my personal platform. However, using a professional platform to showcase my writing leaves me vulnerable and open in a way that I didn’t feel before. Even so, this is what has been asked of me.

I know that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. This is not in question. At the same time, I am being pulled to the front for all to see. As a result, I feel butterflies in my stomach after I publish my posts. I wonder if it will be received and if people will actually get it? “Am I qualified to write books as the Lord says that I will do?” These thoughts and more cross my mind. In any case, I believe the word when it says that God does not call the qualified, but qualifies the called. I can’t boast in myself, but in God! (1 Corinthians 1: 27-31)

The power of my Testimony                        

My testimony is powerful and will help many. I believe that with all that is in me. Be that as it may, it will also get me some side eye from the church folk. Yet I must fearlessly forge ahead! In addition, God blesses and adds no sorrow, so it will definitely work out. That is not the issue. He told me that I would have to be bold and courageous for this next season. Strangely enough, I happen to be both bold and courageous LOL. Truly. If you are a follower of my blog or even my personal social media, you can attest to that.

Authenticity is important in the christian walk. I remember being one way at home and another in public. Do you know how taxing that is? I’m sure some of you do. Some of you are that way. I am thankful to be continually pressing forward in the freedom that truth has given me. In fact, being truthful and leaning on God is how I live my life now. Of course that wasn’t always the case, yet I’m thankful to say I’ve progressed in the Lord during my Cancer journey more than I ever have prior to. (Psalm 107:1-2) (image source: Google.com)

My Progression

As a matter of fact, tragedy opened my eyes and ears to see and hear Him. Furthermore, I am home and not running the streets or in the salon from sun up to sundown. Instead, I am with my family. The growth that has been attained in my household is enough for me to shout, “Hallelujah!” Of course nothing is perfect, but let me tell you! The way my husband and I communicate with each other now versus a year ago is amazing progress. We are applying the word to our marriage, and as a result we are seeing the fruits. (Matthew 19:4-6) What gets me the most irritated in my home is not my husband but my children LOL. Discipline and consistency is what I am working on with them. (image source: Pinterest)

Who I’m writing to

I speak and write on these things to be encouraging to the body of Christ, but especially to married women. Consequently, I mostly relate to married women, as I have been married and divorced and married again. I write to the married christian woman who is not where she wants to be in God.

I also relate to women in general who are fighting the good fight of faith! (1 Timothy 6:12)

These women have a past that they need to forgive themselves for. As a matter of fact, they may have a “present” that needs forgiven. A “present,” that is rocky and bound with strongholds. I’ve been there too.

Jesus has already forgiven us, but we need to forgive ourselves and go forth with what He has called us to do. (2Corinthians 5:17) (Ephesians 1:7)

Transitioning

God is calling us higher as a body, and I recognize that. He is moving in a beautiful and miraculous way. The sermons the last few weeks at my church had many confirmations for me. In fact, this past Sunday spoke volumes to my spirit. It was the Spirit of God speaking through Pastor.

The Lord has revealed Himself to me in ways that have blown my mind. For this reason alone, my life will never be the same. He has changed the entire course of my life.

For example, I am a full time homemaker and writer. Who would have thought that would be my life? Not this lady. I just wanted to be in the salon, and write at my leisure as I’ve been doing for years. And not to knock housewives, because my mom was one, but that was not my plan. (Proverbs 16:1)

Still, it has been a great experience thus far. At home and the writing aspect. Of course with the writing, I have to keep learning the professional way to do things to pen a book. In fact, my writing keeps improving every time I sit down and type. Thank you Jesus! I am smiling as I write this because I know what He said to me. The vision is big and I only know in part, yet without the Lord it will not happen. (Proverbs 16:1) (Psalm 127:1)

At this point it’s all about obedience. It’s not about how I feel. All things considered, if you leave it up to me, I would still be in the salon and writing my little tidbits here and there on my facebook page. 

But God!

In conclusion

Finally you guys, I want to thank you. I know some look at me as if I’m crazy walking away from my salon to sit home and write. You know how I know that? Because I see some doing it when I tell them that I am not returning to the salon. They ask how can I leave something that was certain, for uncertainty? I try to explain this faith walk that I am on; however, everyone can’t receive it.

If you happen to know me, and you’re wondering what is going on, I will tell you like this: I am living my life in a way that I never have before. Freely! I am loving myself in a way that I wasn’t capable of before. Truly! In fact, my husband is loving me in a way that I didn’t know was possible. I would tell you that God has been working on me and through me, and I am letting Him. He’s stripped me bare and turned me to the mirror to face myself. Furthermore, I trust God. I am on that staircase walking up when I can’t see the next step. (Hebrews 11:1)

 

 

 

The enemy invaded my thoughts

I have a word to share about the enemy that comes each time God is elevating you. He whispers words to you that go against what you know to be true and also what you know God said.

Today, I spoke at a service and I’ve never been to a “Testimony Service” so it was interesting. I’ve been in service where people have testified but this entire service was focused on testimonies and praise and worship, which was awesome. My background is Jehovahs Witness so I’m still not that familiar with church protocol. I’m still learning.

I went first. I have such a vast testimony that I had to condense it as much as I could. I think I did ok, but I was questioning it too, because I was saying so many different things. At least it seemed that way to me.

Instantly the enemy said, “You can’t do this. You’re no speaker. You will fail” I will be honest, I listened at first and said to myself, “I didn’t do well. I was all over the place. I should have said it this way…”

Then, I rebuked the spirit of doubt and refused to listen. It had to go! It could no longer take residence in my mind. It wanted me to believe that I can’t go to this next level that God is taking me and I actually entertained it! I became scared that I couldn’t do it. It’s new. It’s uncomfortable.ย 

However,ย I said, “I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.”ย ๐Ÿ™ And I said, ” I cast down every thought that raises itself again the knowledge of God and call it unto submission.” It’s not a direct quote but they knew what was up. I just started speaking the word.

Furthermore, I heard in my spirit, “I am with you” I heard it 3 times. I started to raise my hands and praise Him.

See, I have to stay in a place of looking at Jesus so that I don’t sink like Peter. God showed me that I will see a lot more and as He continues to pull me to the front to share my testimony that I will be warring in the Spirit.

I thank God for today. I thank Him for allowing me to see and hear. It’s not easy but I’m fighting the good fight of faith!

I told my cousin what happened and she said, “Not you! You’re always so positive” and I told her that I am not immune to the enemy coming to me. He may get a hit in ย but he not knocking me down! No one is immune! Please believe it. But we must rebuke and bind the enemy. Cast those thoughts down. Recognize the strongholds the enemy tries to set up. That’s what he was doing with me–attempting to set up a stronghold in my mind. ย I thank God that I was aware. Rebuke the devil and he will flee. And most of all TRUST GOD AND THE PLAN THAT HE HAS FOR OUR LIVES.ย 

Three ladies came to me directly letting me know my testimony helped them. Glory! Because even if one person was encouraged I feel great about that.

The enemy wants to silence my testimony but he can’t. The Lord has been too good to me! God has gone before me and set my path straight. The Lord will continue to develop me and all I say is, “Yes God to your will and to your way”

In conclusion, it was a blessing. Jesus was magnified! I was blessed by the testimonies that I heard. And I appreciated being included.

The word says atย Revelation 12:11

“And they have conquered him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, for they loved not their lives even unto death.”

Be Blessed! โค๏ธ

“You want me to do what, God?”

How many of you have received a word from the Lord that gave you pause? That made you say, “You want me to do what, God?”

I have.

I have received a few of those words, that I didn’t quite understand, yet most times, I obeyed. The times that I didn’t obey, I paid the price. We do suffer many things, not from the enemy or the Lord, but by our own decisions. You do know that, right? Some things are just us. We need to get out of our own way.

The Lord says that obedience is better than sacrifice. (1 Samuel ย 15:22)

Also, understand these 3 things. (I cited these 3 from jolly notes.com, but agree with them 100%)

#1 God is still God โ€“ God is still on the throne
Psalm 46:10, ESV Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!

#2 God Knows. God Understands.
It may not make sense to us, but it makes sense to God. There are some things that we just donโ€™t have the capacity to fully understand right now. God may have allowed something to happen, but it doesnโ€™t mean it makes God happy.
Isaiah 55:8-9, ESV For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

#3 God loves you very deeply –ย His love for us is profound, incomprehensible, unfathomable and everlasting
Jeremiah 31:3, NIV โ€ฆI have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.


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Knowing these things, and also referencing the many times that He has shown up in my life, leading and directing me, making things work out for my good, I know that I can trust Him.

Trust and faith is necessary to be obedient to God. You must believe that He will do what He says He will, even if it doesn’t look like it. You must trust His word.

Are there scenarios in the bible that I can reference? Sure, lets take a look at a few of my favorites from the Old and New Testaments:

  • God told Noah that He would cause it to rain and flood the earth for 40 days and 40 nights and to build an ark. Noah hadn’t experienced those weather conditions on earth before. He built it. He was ridiculed, yet he was obedient. He and his family were saved. He did everything God told him to do. Regardless of what he actually saw. He trusted God.
  • What about Moses? He was told to lead the people out of Egypt. Moses was not well spoken and did not think himself qualified. He said as much to God. God allowed his brother Aaron to assist but he still used Moses. Moses was successful in leading the children of Israel from Egypt. God did many signs and wonders thru Moses,
  • Abraham was told to sacrifice his son. His only son. The son of promise. He was obedient. He walked 3 days with his son to the mountain. His son asked where the sacrifice was and He told him that God would provide. He had so much trust in God. That was trust from a hard place. Can you imagine? All of the families on earth have been blessed because of Abraham, the father of faith.
  • Gideon was hiding in the cave when he saw an angel. The angel called him brave. He said for him to go boldly and save his people, the Israelites, from the hands of the Midianites. He said that the Lord was with him. He obeyed. He was victorious, and of all the fifteen men who ruled as Judges of Israel, Gideon, the fifth Judge, was the greatest, in courage, in wisdom, and in faith in God.
  • Joseph was told that his wife would be pregnant by the Holy Spirit. He was told that he had to stay with her. You know Joseph had a hard time with that one. He was obedient and Emmanuel – God with us, Jesus, was born into the world. Hallelujah!
  • Peter when asked to meet Jesus on the water is another example. I can just imagine his face LOL. “You want me to come out there?” “How?” (paraphrasing and emphasis mine) He was obedient and he walked on the water just like Jesus!
  • Ananias was asked by God to go to Saul aka Paul. Ananias had heard of Saul and he was hesitant. Sauls reputation as a murderer of those in The Way, or the Christians was well known. God told him that Saul was chosen by Him. He blinded Saul and wanted Ananias to go lay hands on him that he may regain his sight and also so he can be filled with the Holy Spirit. He was obedient.

There are many more throughoutย the bible. I want to show a history of how God deals with us. Obedience is absolutely necessary. Do not make mistakes about it.


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God told me to leave my salon. A salon that He gave me. He said that He was shifting me-closing that door and opening another. I did not understand at first. I understand now. My clients, some family and friends, didn’t understand, and probably still don’t. My answer to them is that I’m being obedient. He didn’t give them the vision, He gave it to me. So I can’t expect them to understand. That is the best way I can say it, because that’s the truth. There is a scripture in John where Jesus says to his disciples that you may not understand now but later you will. Isn’t it like that? We don’t always get it at first. Sometimes we do, other times we are left asking, “What’s going on?” Let us never lose sight that Gods ways are not our ways, nor His thoughts our thoughts. Although we must have the mind of Christ, our Father in Heaven is still way higher than anything we can imagine. We are limited but we serve a LIMITLESS God!

It is imperative to walk in faith. If we walk by sight we won’t move. We will be fearful because of what we see. Or what others may say. We would be fearful because our mind will tell us that we can’t make it. Or that it’s too uncomfortable. I thought I would be a hairstylist and then teach hair for the rest of my life. ย I was ok with that. I love doing hair. God had a plan all along. The more I walk with Him, the more I gain understanding. Even allowing this cancer to hit my body. He allowed me to suffer. But I am thankful for this suffering. It has opened my eyes and brought me to a level that I never was prior to this. He never left me, but told me it’s a process I must go through and it will be for His Glory! I am still going through, but all is well. I am clay. I am on the Potter’s wheel.

I used to write when I was younger, and my mom was a writer, but she didn’t do anything with it. God told me the same gifts He gave her, He gave to me but greater and I will do something with mine, for HIS GLORY! Glory to God!! ย As Believers, we know that God knows the plans that He has for us. He knows. Even if we don’t. Our position should just be, “Yes God!”, ” Yes to your will and yes to your way.” Now, in saying, “Yes”, we don’t know which way things are going to go. It’s a faith walk, regardless of what is happening. He says if we put Him first all other things will be added. I’m putting Him first and believing Him on His word. Whatever is in store for me will be good. No doubt about that. It has already started to manifest. I see it in the Spirit. I see so much in the Spirit now. I’m less attached to the world, more attached to Him. The visions I have received concerning my life are scary, because they are big. I have written down what I want (making it plain.) I know that they can only take place with God spearheading, going ahead of me and making my path straight. It takes me being obedient to His will and living my life the way He requires. There is no compromise with God.

The Anointing cost!ย 

Have you received a word that you don’t quite understand? Is there a decision for you to make? Don’t trust in anything or anyone more than God.

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We like to stay where it’s comfortable. But all progress takes place outside the comfort zone. You may have a dream or some desires that have not been fulfilled yet. Seek God. Trust Him. Walk in His ways. He is the one that gives us success. He is the one that causes us to be promoted. (Deuteronomy 8:18) His answers are yes, no and wait. His way is always better. Better than anything I could imagine. Our scope is so limited. We limited by what we see around us. He is a God that does not grow weary. He is an everlasting God. He sees the end from the beginning. There is comfort in that. There is comfort in knowing that the Creator of Heaven and Earth loves us so much. That He knows the number of hairs on our heads. He knows what we need. He says that He knows how to give good gifts to us. He can’t lie.

Trust Him.

 

Faith it and you will make it

Have you ever heard the term, “Fake it until you make it?”

Most people have. Do you know what it means?

It means to imitate confidence and competence with an optimistic mindset.  You do this until it comes to pass.  The “faking it” part is acting in a way as if it was already true.

The “making it” part is the hopeful realization that it will come to pass.

You have to believe in yourself even to fake it.

You have to be confident enough to pull it off. You must act the part.

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Faith it and you will make it!

This is the meaning of Faith: “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1

Having faith means to hope and also to believe. You can’t “fake it.” Not truly. You can have the appearance of faith to onlookers but you can’t lie to God. Also, it’s pointless to fake faith because what you need to happen won’t happen. You see, the same concept doesn’t work for faith. The whole “pretending” thing.

Yes, I hear you, it’s similar right? In both situations, you are hoping for something that isn’t quite true because it hasn’t happened. The difference with faith is God. We are believing that God is who He says He is, and will do what He says He will do. We are believing in the power of God.

God causes those things that are not, as though they were. So we are trusting and believing God. That is the foundation of having faith. Trusting God. And how can you actually trust God, if you don’t believe He is God? Or that He is able to do all things as He says in His word?

Numbers 23:19 (NKJV)

19 โ€œGod is not a man, that He should lie,
Nor a son of man, that He should repent.
Has He said, and will He not do?
Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?

You can’t pretend to have faith. You just have to have it. you either believe Him or you don’t. I know I make it sound simple. I understand that initially it isn’t simple. But trust me, as you continue in your walk with God, it gets easier.

See for me, my experience is my evidence.

I have experience with God, and that experience has taken me from faith to faith. My faith grows each time.

Abraham never wavered in believing God’s promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. Roman 4:20

 

Faith makes you look crazy. Seriously. You are believing something that looks hopeless and onlookers are saying, “You are crazy to keep believing in a dead situation.” How many can relate?

But believe and don’t waver. Don’t stop believing God.

(As it is written, I have made thee a father of many nations,) before him whom he believed, even God, who quickeneth the dead, and calleth those things which be not as though they were. Romans 4:17

I want to share with you one of my experiences. I have many, and will have many more as I continue in my walk with the Lord.

It was about 18 months ago that my husband and I purchased our home. I feel excitement even as I am typing this because God is so good. We were house hunting and we looked at many homes. When we came to this home, I fell in love. It was my home. I saw my family in it. I went to the backyard and I placed my hands on it and decreed and declared it mine, and saying to the Lord that He said that He would give me what I asked in faith and that no good thing would He withhold from me. I believed Him for this house. I walked away feeling very confident. (Job 22:28)

All was going well. We put our offer in. I kept telling the realtor that this house was going to be ours. I said to him, “What’s mine is mine, and no one can take it from me.” He would smile and look curiously at me. I enrolled my children in their new schools with only a purchase agreement. We hadn’t closed on the home, but to me that was a mere technicality. I started setting up transfers of service and everything.

So after these things had taken place, we received a call saying that our deal fell through because someone came with a cash offer and the sellers were taking it. WOW

True story.

I heard the realtor. I did. But I didn’t believe it…I didn’t receive it. I told my husband that night, it still felt like our home. It didn’t feel like we lost it.  The next day our realtor was very apologetic and said, “These things happen. I have more homes to show you that are equally as nice.”

We looked at a few homes. I was very unenthusiastic about the whole thing. I couldn’t understand. I said, “Lord you gave me peace with this home. I believed you for it and still believe you.”

To make a long story short we received a call saying that the sellers were going with us. Yes! us! He thought they were crazy LOL and at closing their realtor said the same. He didn’t understand the decision they made.  Yet I said, at closing, “What did I tell y’all?”, “What’s mine is mine, and this was my home.” welcome home

I love God! That was a testimony that day and a witness to His goodness. His faithfulness. I am thankful everyday in my home. I know what God can do. I don’t care what a situation looks like. He can turn marriages around. He can deliver from drugs and alcohol. He can heal.

He can do anything.

You just need to go back to the last thing He did for you. And other things that He has done for you. Marinate on that. Whether it’s small or big. Build your faith off of your experiences. There are also testimonies of His goodness that your friends/family members may have. He is the same God.

Believe and confess the word of God over your situation. God says He watches over His word to perform it and that it will not return to Him void.

Look at what the scriptures say at Jeremiah 1:12, Then the LORD said to me, โ€œYou have seen well, for I am watching over my word to perform it.โ€ and at Isaiah 55:11, “It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.”

You can see a real move of God in your life if you just believe, trust and have confidence in Him and His word.

His word is true.

We don’t want to “fake it” until we “make it” in our walk with God. We want to truly “Faith it” so we can “make it.” Make it to whatever we are believing God for.

 Without faith it’s impossible to please God. (Hebrews 11:6)

And with faith we must have works. We must act like what we say. We must act on what we say we believe. (James 2: 14-26) Don’t ask God to save your marriage and talk negative about your marriage every chance you get. Speak life into that situation. Speak the Word. If you’re believing God for a job, go apply. Go on interviews. Don’t sit in your home and say things like, “I’ll never get a job”, or “There are no good jobs.” God can do all things, but we have free will. He does work with us and will not force us. He wants to do for us. He knows how to give us good gifts too, the best! But ask, believing that you will receive, regardless of what it looks like. We pray, but we must also speak the word over our situations. Then have patience. Patience in His perfect timing.

I am believing God for my total and complete healing from cancer. I believe Him. I speak healing over myself. I speak His word. All is well with me. I believe God’s report. Sometimes this cancer stuff looks downright ugly too. The side effects of the treatments do a number on me. I say, “This too shall pass.”  This is a chapter of my life, not my entire life. I have so much more life to live. God has shown me things in dreams and visions and prophetic words spoken over me. I believe Him.

They haven’t come to pass yet, so I am not going anywhere just yet.

He is not a man that He should lie.

This entire time since my diagnosis, surgery and treatments, I have been on a faith walk. It came out of nowhere and I didn’t understand what was happening in my life. Diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer. Everything stopped for me. My state of mind is very important during a season such as this. The enemy came with his lies. I rebuked him and continue to look to God. I have to trust God in my finances, my state of mind, my health, my family, etc. So much was affected with me being down. God is my healer. He is my deliverer. He is my provider and way maker. Sometimes I feel really terrible. Sometimes I have pain so badly that I can’t even get out of the bed. But you know what I do? I say, “Thank you Jesus”, and “I bless your name Lord.” I praise Him! I have a prayer room in the basement and when I can’t make it down there, I pray from my bed. I praise Him and I trust Him through my trial. Trusting He will see me through it. Faith that He will never leave me.

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God is real. He is faithful. Make it a priority to go deeper. There is surface faith. The milk. and that is OK if that is where you are, but don’t stay there. We all start there. Babies in the faith.

Babies eventually need cereal, then baby food, and solid food like adults.

Go deeper and get solid food. (Hebrews 5:4)

Faith it and you will see the hand of God work powerfully in your life. Focus on what God says. Don’t focus on the negative things. Your response is what’s important. Exercise faith. If you need more faith, ask God. Ask Him for whatever you need. (Matthew 7:7-12)

Remember that no weapon formed against you shall prosper. They may form, but they won’t prosper. Don’t focus on the weapons. Speak against them. The enemy is a liar. remember that. Don’t compare yourself with anyone else either. God is not partial. What He does for one, He can do for another. He deals with us differently too. He knows where we are. He knows what we can handle. If you’re a parent with more than one child, you know this to be true with your own children. We love them all, but based on who they are as an individual, we deal with them accordingly to who they are and what they need specifically. For example, I may have a child that is more responsible when given assignments, and can handle a lot at once. I know how much I can give to them. I may have another who is the opposite, so I know the load that I can give them. I deal with them accordingly but loving them both.

Comparing yourself will only have you stagnant in your walk. It may cause you to murmur and give an open door for  the enemy. Don’t go there.

Look at God. That’s it. Be Free! Faith in God frees you from the bondage of worry. Don’t be bound.

There is power in the name of Jesus. Believe it!

Jesus said at Luke 18:8, “…when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on earth?โ€ That’s deep!

Will He? You can’t speak for me, nor I for you. We must all work out our own salvation.

I hope this encourages you.

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